peace . love . joy

doctor said smthg triggered off the allergy reaction..problem is we dont know what exactly caused it..cld be the air (which i doubt) cld be stress (mebe, but not very likely) cld be sausages (God, NO!! please!!) cld be vitagen or cheese or chocolates..man, the list goes on and on and on and on and on....*is there ANYTHG i CAN and LIKE to eat??!!*

rem i said that my right eye's shortsighted and my left's longsighted??..and that last time, it was my good \ left eye that was red??..well..now my weak \ right eye's red..and it is real uncomfortable..s'y sm of u saw me drip-drippin' eyedrops ever so often on saturday..if u've gots time to spare, can plse pray for my eyes?..i really value them..and wel..they're my life..if i lose my sight..let's not go there, k?

anyways, drama tmr, most likely on wednesday too..dance wholeday frm tmr til thurs..children's party on saturday and christmas drama experience for kids on monday..busybuSYBUSY~!! i love being busy for gOd..but not TOO busy til i lose focus..

shivs~!! MSG (NOT MSN) me when ure free after christmas..which is after nxt monday, k??..i gots u a present and i DONT want to keep it til nxt yr..plus, i really want to have coffee \ vodka+cranberry with u =] *enough physical exercise, i'm beat*

i hate getting presents for pple..i dont mind giving stuff..i luvvit, in fact..i jus hate the planning what to get (cos i believe in giving each person a different gift), what to write in cards, wrapping, and finding that person to give the gift to..wayy too much work, man, for a lazyBum like me..

BUT this yr, i decided to be a not-so-lazyBum and got presents for every member of my pcm grp..which is NOT a single digit number..wrote lil notes, wrapped them (sm of them are real hard to wrap like that frying pan)..now comes the worst task : FINDING THE GIFT'S RIGHTFUL OWNERS..

but hey! i love unwrapping stuff..so let's spread the cheer, pple~!!..mwahahaha..hopefully i didnt miss out anyone in the grp..hmmm..

shawn jus left for tekong..BUT he will be back for christmas =] *will be missin u til then, ShawnLee..mwahahaha =D

cheers~!!

me

ytd was drama prac in the afternoon and then eragon at night

(just fyi : eragon's so NOT worth it..think i've been spoiled by LOTR and Aragorn *sigh*)

drama prac was weird..first time leading..kinda went alright..jus that the p6s were a lil..how shall i put it..self-conscious..big talkers when others were acting their part, but silent as a mouse and still as the night when it comes to their turn..they gotta break outta that, man..they've one week left~!!

then danced a lil with a.Mag, daena and carty..so fun =] ..i positively absolutely definitely LOVE SUPERHERO & GET UP AND DANCE & KING OF MAJESTY !!

they're so upbeat and..well..nice =D

it's great to dance for Jesus..even if you know \ think you cant dance, dance for all you're worth and dance for God..i'm pretty sure God'll watch and will love it..even be tickled by it =]

talking to a.Mag ytd was great..reminded me of why i chose to stay with children's ministry..to have a chance to be part of God's plan for kids..that we should not look down on them because they are young..sometimes, God's plan for us starts when we are little..like Samuel and David =]

i like the name Mishael =] mebe someday IF i get married and IF i have a boy, i'll call him Mishael..it means who is like God..

here's a lil encouragement for you :

Did You Know

did you know there's someone loving you
He lives in me and other people too
did you know He died on the cross
did you know His name is Jesus

i want to thank You for everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
to die on a cross for my sin
to die on a cross for my sin

did you know He rose from the dead
is risen now He will be back again
did you know He's loving you today
did you know He's the only way

i want to thank You for everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
to die on a cross for my sin
to die on a cross for my sin

gOd bLEsS

me

When I wake in the morning

I will sing, sing I love You.

I love You

As I close my eyes

To sleep at night, I will worship

Worship You

I love You Jesus I love You

I love You Jesus I love You

yesterday all my troubles seem so far away..

i got confirmed and accepted into membership of Faith Methodist Church ytd =]

took me one year frm baptism to get that membership (though i've no idea why i need it..shhh!) so 10122005 and 10122006 are special dates for me =] but i'd have to say 16062005 was more significant..reuben morgan concert..read my testimony..one of my first posts here..hahas, not gonna retype..

anyways, after church, went to meet suf..plan was to go vivo, hang arnd and catch up..

vivo wasnt as big as i thought it'd be..kinda boring actually..considering i'm NOT shopper-material, NOT loaded and i DONT realli like crowded places..dont realli like getting disoriented and feeling lost cos thgs are happening in a blurry fast-forward mode..*shudders*..

BUT

i did like the playground and the wading pool outside =] ..lovely..too bad we didnt bring a change of clothes..hahas..mebe another time..

ate chicken noodles..didnt tast that great..definitely not worth the $$..but heck, u learn where NOT to go..

got a lil tired of vivo..decided to go underwater world~!!..

just realised that it costs $1 less to walk across than to take the bus..hahas =D

underwater world entrance fee : $19.50

OMG~!! so freaking ex~!!

so suf and i ended up appeasing ourselves with coke and green tea and a walk along siloso (my favourite)..

saw a 2 nice ang-mohs..cold blue eyes and tall enough..hahas..

oh oh~!! i proved to suf that there were fish in the lagoon thg =] *told you so!*

the luge thg costs $8..that's 4 bowls of wanton mee..not as satisfying as wanton mee i'd reckon..no kick..

it was realli fun, man..hanging with suf..i think pple bond more when it's just 2..u form a dyad..

"social interaction in dyads are typically more intense than in larger groups since, in a one-to-one relationship, neither member shared the other's attention with anyone else..thus, dyads have the potential to be the most meaningful social bonds we ever experience.
like a stool with 2 legs, dyads have a characteristic instability. both members of a dyad must actively sustain the relationship; if either one withdraws, the group collapses. by contrast, a large group is inherently much more stable as it can survive the loss of many members."

~ Georg Simmel (1858 - 1918)
Macionis, John J. and Plummer, Ken 2005 "Groups, Organisations and the Rise of the Network Soiety" Sociology A Global Introduction third edition, pp. 137-138. Pearson Education Limited

funny how i was never bored..hoped you were never bored too, suf~!!..still remember the shaking of the arse and the gender-confused "zee" mohammed ali guy..mwahahhaha =D i have GOT to meet him!

let's save up and go underwater world and see the lousy fishies..this time, we'll bring beach wear, BUT we aint playing in the sea!..cant think of the sea without thinking of my friends peeing in it..gross, pple..pure grossness..

btw, how's your head??..hope u didnt get a bruise there..my head's fine..no blueblack =] see whose skull is stronger
now we know : sand is slippery..HAHAS =D

i'm gonna get u a pair of bright purple trunks for christmas =P

take care

me

"if you expect nothing, you will never be disappointed"

i never really thought of that saying until recently. now that i come to think of it, it's true : you cannot know the meaning of disappointment, if you did not have expectations of something or someone.

so wrapped up in our own worlds, few of us have really been able to display the virtues of selfless-ness all our lives. that in all we do, we think of others, never ourselves first. to me, that is impossible. because no matter what you think of, it always boils down to me, Me , ME. that's just the way humans are. practically no exceptions.

i'm a little cautious about the whole idea of "human nature" and our "natural inclinations \ tendencies" because the line between nature and human-influenced is, at least to me, quite a blurry one especially when it comes to character.

anyhow, i was disappointed yet again by, surprise, myself.

the worst thing to be disappointed in is yourself. that holds true for some, myself included.

if you take the arguement of the earlier mentioned saying, reason is because i expected too much of myself. simple as that.

pride.

i have too much of it in me.

pride, too much loitering in the imaginary world, and the assumption that everything's all right. terrible mix, i assure you.

not going to go into details here. but let's just say certain things irritate you, in an effort not to use the p*** word. and in my case, little things make life joyful and little things also have the capacity to irritate me no end. when i get angry with something (usually someone having done something, actually), i have to pause and take a breather for fear of doing \ saying something i would later regret. and in that time, i think why exactly am i angry. and it comes down (more often than not) to myself. outwardly, i blame others, inwardly, i blame myself. and that sucks. because i end up being disappointed in myself and really angry with myself. and noone and nothing can cool me down, except myself.

the "self" really is an interesting being. gosh!

cant believe i actually cried because of that stupid thg.

but, as always, gOd has a plan. and His plan is always the best. and it will always work out. and when i look back, i would most probably not have it any other way. *see, i remember my stuff well, hah*

i dont doubt that, dont take me wrongly. i dont doubt that He always has a plan, and that His plan is always the best, and it will always work out, and when i look back, i would most probably not have it any other way. i dont doubt that.

hah

just thought of something. i was upset b4 because of my German oral test. i disappointed myself, and my teacher (who said so herself that it was disappointing). and at that moment, i was really down. felt that nothing could cheer me up. you know, one of those moments where you felt that if you could turn back time, you would without hesitation? but somehow, i cant remember what really happened, i managed to pull myself back together *thank gOd i am not humpty-dumpty* and move on.

this disappointment is far greater in magnitude as compared to that one. perhaps that one was a warning \ test for me by gOd. to slowly get me accustomed to disappointments and setbacks for a major one. not say accustomed, lah, but more like, hmmm. what's that word? maybe "used to"? so that i wont feel like it's the end of the world and try to kill myself.

in that sense, yes, i am thankful. and i always have the assurance that gOd will always be there for me. and other people who think about me when i dont expect them to.

i guess not expecting anything is great. makes the surprise sweeter.

but is that really possible?

Chicks and ducks and geese better scurry
When I take you out in the surrey,
When I take you out in the surrey with the fringe on top!

Watch that fringe and see how it flutters
When I drive them high steppin' strutters.
Nosey pokes'll peek thru' their shutters and their eyes will pop!

The wheels are yeller, the upholstery's brown,
The dashboard's genuine leather,
With isinglass curtains y' can roll right down,
In case there's a change in the weather.

Two bright sidelight's winkin' and blinkin',
Ain't no finer rig I'm a-thinkin'
You c'n keep your rig if you're thinkin' 'at I'd keer to swap
Fer that shiny, little surrey with the fringe on the top!

All the world'll fly in a flurry
When I take you out in the surrey,
When I take you out in the surrey with the fringe on top!

When we hit that road, hell fer leather,
Cats and dogs'll dance in the heather,
Birds and frogs'll sing all together and the toads will hop!

The wind'll whistle as we rattle along,
The cows'll moo in the clover,
The river will ripple out a whispered song,
And whisper it over and over:

Don't you wisht y'd go on forever?
Don't you wisht y'd go on forever?
Don't you wisht y'd go on forever and ud never stop

In that shiny, little surrey with the fringe on the top!

I can see the stars gettin' blurry,
When we drive back home in the surrey,
Drivin' slowly home in the surrey with the fringe on top!

I can feel the day gettin' older,
Feel a sleepy head on my shoulder,
Noddin', droopin' close to my shoulder, till it falls kerplop!

The sun is swimmin' on the rim of a hill;
The moon is takin' a header,
And jist as I'm thinkin' all the earth is still,
A lark'll wake up in the medder.

Hush, you bird, my baby's a-sleepin'!
Maybe got a dream worth a-keepin'
Whoa! you team, and jist keep a-creepin' at a slow clip clop.
Don't you hurry with the surrey with the fringe on the top!