peace . love . joy

i was flipping thru my OJ (Our Journey) again..cos today's write-up was the last for the Mar.Apr.May 2006 booklet..

i came across a few articles that realli touched me..and i thought it'd be great to share with evryone wad i read and learnt frm sm of them..mebe all ( if time permits..) =]

when i was reading the last article, it spoke of stillness (written by Tom Felten) , i was reminded of a previous article i read..that one preached of having peace in the storm (written by Beth Moore)..

in both messages, i noticed a common denominator : gOd was present and He stretched out his arm to protect & help..

in mr. Felten's article, the scenario he referred to was that in
Exodus 14:13-14
(13) Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. (14) The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be STILL.

in ms. Moore's, she quoted Jesus
Matthew 14:27-31
(27) But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, "Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid." (28) And Peter answered him, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." (29) He said, "Come." So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. (30) But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, "Lord, save me." (31) Jesus immediately reached out His hand and took hold of him, saying to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"

who can say their lives are totally peaceful, without battles to fight?..i know i cant..

who can say their lives are totally peaceful, without storms?.. i know i cant..

Jesus knows.

He knows that in a lifetime, an average person will definitely be faced with difficulties and hurdles, be it your exams, your trying to fit in with a group of pple, your work, your struggle to complete the race course set before you in your Christian journey..

gOd is willing and ready to help you..He is always on call 24\7 !!
(Praise Him for that, man..i'd die if he works onli on mondays to fridays, 9-5..*whew*)

as ms. Moore puts it :
Jesus didnt CHANGE the circumstances to make them bearable.
He CONQUERED them at the peak of their impossibility. He had perfect peace in the storm.

He probably aint gonna take away your sorrows, nor your hurts, nor your troubles, nor your battles to be fought (for they make you grow)..but He's going to help you along..He takes you by your right hand and says to you do not fear..

be still and know that

He IS gOd !!

be still and hear the words

"The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still."

be still and know that

He is your perfect peace in the storms of life

trust Him.

when ure drowning, call to Him..He wont WALK to you..He'll be by your side to pull you up in a jiffy -- He'll be there in an instant !!

cry for help when u need it..aid WILL come to you..

For with gOd nothing is ever impossible and no word from gOd shall be without power or impossible of fulfilment
Luke 1:37

gOd bLEsS

me

thgs havent been going smooth for me for the past few days..actually, they havent been going well for me at all since that incident..i have yet to learn to let go..i try..i realli do..but it's not easy when pple dont let you forget..they mean well..but it sorta tears me up inside..i can onli be at peace when i am reminded of gOd's promise : if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness ( 1 John 1:9)

seems like i'm trying to console myself, huh..rest assured, i'm not trying to defend myself using the bible verses..evrytime i'm reminded of wad happened, i chide myself for my mistakes and shortcmgs..i get so upset with myself..and i'm kinda tired of always being angry at myself for the one thg that happened weeks ago..my stamina isnt great and i dont think it's gOd's intention for me to dwell on the past..we shld look to the future : learn frm our mistakes & change for the better..gOd's definition of better, that is..

wad keeps bothering me these days is wad eric said years ago..think it was when i was 14..fan zhen it's when i was in secondary school..at least 2 1/2 yrs ago..

he said that the 4 greatest thgs that can pull man away frm gOd are
1. wealth
2. power
3. fame
4. lust

he says that we can become so preoccupied with the above mentioned that we forget gOd..his importance in our lives is completely wiped out \ faded into the background..the numero uno spot taken over by one or more of those..

how true!

when i was in sec school, my mind cldnt rake up evidence to support wad i've jus been taught..and the lesson was soon packed into a box, pushed into a corner of my mind..labelled (i'm a good labeller!!) but forgotten..

until recently, when i was thinking how come i cant worship gOd in services on sundays wholeheartedly..smthg's holding me back frm giving my all..how come when i usually listen to sermons (even if they're preached by pple who arent authoratative \ charismatic \ interesting enough to command evryone's attention) i find myself drifting way too often in the course of say 30-45 mins??..smthg was wrong..

i can safely & humbly tell you that i, megan, have fallen prey to 3 of those Great4 ..i have lusted after pple, i have yearned for fame and i have hungered for power over my rebellious attention-seeking brothers..perhaps the onli one that i have yet to (and hopefully NEVER) succumb to is the thirst for wealth..i have no ambition wadsoever to climb ladders, bring home bacon, blahblahblah..

but the one that has THE greatest influence over me is the one, the only -- LUST

lust has the amazing ability to plonk it's big generous self onto the CEO's chair of my life and jus get real comfy..it has no desire to leave, nor do i wish it to go (most of the time)..

smtimes, it is the culprit behind my lack of sincerity in praising and worshipping gOd..

but smtimes, it is MYSELF..

my thoughts grow wild and untamed..i get so preoccupied by wad i am thinking about that i jus forget where i am, how i got there and wad i am doing there..i need to put a leash on my thoughts..tie it tight when i need to focus on smthg..gOd help me..

wad is overtaking YOU today??..wad is causing you to lose focus on gOd??..who is blurring your vision??..

isit one \more of the Great4??

isit your thoughts??

wad isit??

that's the first step..

the second is this : ask yourself, do YOU WANT it to stop??

perhaps you yourself are powerless over wadever's causing you to drift away frm gOd..but one thg's for sure!!

gOd IS MORE POWERFUL THAN ANYTHG U'LL EVER ENCOUNTER

Jerimiah 32:27 says : Behold, I am the Lord, the gOd of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?
Matthew 19:26 says : And looking upon them, Jesus said to them, "With men this is impossible, but with gOd all things are possible"

talk to gOd..tell him your shortcmgs..he knows wad u are lacking in..and he knows how to equip you appropriately and timely..

He is willing and ever-ready to help and teach you..

but you are given the choice :

are you able to humble yourself by acknowledging you are weak and powerless and accepting the fact that you need help frm gOd, and so, asking for his hand to hold?

or are you unable to swallow your pride and ego, rejecting his help..preferring to address issues with your own strength?

(i myself have been proud..but that's another post for another time..)

For I am the Lord, your gOd,
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
Do not fear; I will help you
Isaiah 41:13

gOd bLEsS

me

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
Within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
i will be still know You are gOd

Find rest my rest soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

Lingkupiku degan sayapMu
Naungiku degan kuasaMu

Disaat badai bergelora
Ku akan terbang bersamaMu
Kaulah Rajah Alam Semesta
Ku tenang s'bab Kau Allahku

i jus got my hair cut today..

the stylist said that i shldnt perm \ rebond \ color..not that i wanted to rebond \ color..i wanted to perm!!..cos my mum said i had a nice head of curls when i was born..but when they shaved me..no more curls!! *sob* =[

nyways..thank gOd i haf thick hair =]

i also went to the esplanade library today.. (my mum drove me there..so nice of her =D) ..

b4 the drive down to the esplanade, i was thinking bout smthg that happened quite awhile ago..btwn me & another girl..(think that's y i went to get my hair cut..i find it relaxing..)

got me quite down & depressed..not because of wad i did..wel..partly becos of that..but more of wad went on btwn us and wad she did afterward..i dont know if the info i got was accurate..but if it was..then let's jus say i'm real disappointed in her..(and ofcourse, if she's reading this, she'll fire back)..

anyway..i jus wanted to post smthg that gOd was trying to tell me thru 3 pple..

LET IT GO

when u've wronged a person, and know that ure in the wrong..apologise!! sincerely, ofcourse..swallow your pride and ask for forgiveness frm that person..

talk to gOd..tel him EXACTLY wad happened..tel him u know ure in the wrong..and..same thg..ask for forgiveness sincerely..with a REPENTANT heart..and believe that he'll forgive you..

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9

it hurt when that smone refuses to forgive..

but it is not my plce to DEMAND her to forgive me..

it hurts..yea..

then my friend asked: "does it matter whether she forgives you?..u KNOW gOd has forgiven you.."

another friend said: "u've already apologised so u can let it go and move on.."

yet another said: "let it be..gOd forgives you and that's all you need, realli.."

for those christians out there who haf a hurting heart like mine..
because smone cannot find it in themselves to forgive you..

talk to gOd about it..he's the BEST listener u can find =] ..trust me on that one..

and dont worry..

gOd forgives as long as you ask..he forgives & forgets =]

I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; and I will not remember your sins. Put Me in remembrance; let us contend together; state your case, that you may be acquitted.
Isaiah 43:25-26

but then..u'l probably haf to deal with the guilt..hahas =D

found this link helpful..

go visit!!

http://www.bible-knowledge.com/Verses-on-Forgiveness.html

now dont forget this painful lesson..and remember it when smone else asks YOU for your forgiveness..

gOd bLEsS

me

i found this version of the song "Turn your eyes upon Jesus" but i dunno who wrote it..this version i mean..

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

Keep your eyes upon Jesus
And others will not take His place
But through every hour He will give you power
Til at last you have run the straight race

You are the peace that guards my heart
my help in time of need

You are the hope that leads me on
and brings me to my knees

For there i find You waiting
and there i find release

So with all my heart i'll worship
and unto You i'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
and we worship You this day

i'm so sorry.. jus cant help it..

evrytime i think of wad happened..i jus..lets jus say it never ceases to amaze me..

when i was in JC..my christian life was on the rocks..anytime..shld a flippant wave decide to hit..my life wld end..it was bad..

i cldnt care less wad the pastor \ leader was saying..the worship songs..wad about them?..

i knew that was bad..it meant that anytime, i cld simply stop cmg to church altogether..and stop talking to gOd (not that i did at that time..not unless i was forced to) ..in other words..i cld stop struggling for Christ..

i told meihuan bout it..she talked to me..told me that i'd have to make a stand..and choose..

that was smtime in the beginning of the yr..cant remember if it's 2004 or 2005..

then, i got wind that reuben morgan was cmg to Faith for a one night worship \ concert..

i dont know wad made me go..considering that i positively loathe crowds..and it wld take a miracle or smthg real important \ big for me to get my big fat arse outta the comfort and safety of my home..but i jus turned to carty and said "let's go!"..

i even went as far as to invite my friends..i invited 5..of which 1 turned up..my cousin..tracy.. =D

so on the evening of 16062005 (thursday), i walked into the already crowded worship hall..sat right at the back and got comfy..

i cant realli put in wrds wad i experienced there, but it was like WHOA!!

the music was great, yes..the leader was great, yes..but wad realli hit me that night were the songs we sang..smhow..the lyrics realli spoke to me..even thou the songs were written FOR gOd to be sung TO gOd..smhow..they spoke TO ME!!

and by the end of worship..(i tel you we cld have worshipped all through the night and still not feel tired..seriously..i'm not kidding)..i was one crying sniffling mess of a person..that was on the outside..but on the inside..i was neat and prim and all..because all the messiness and crowdedness inside me disappeared..i onli had eyes and ears and mind for one..and one onli -- gOd..

interesting how powerful a simple worship can be, huh..

it straightened me up inside..

and interesting enough..i stayed straightened..as in..i now onli haf eyes for gOd, ears for gOd's words, mind for gOd's speaking to \ impressing upon \ his will..

ofcourse smtimes i stray a little, but the leash is short and retractable..it snaps right back..

i bought a shirt frm the batch that mr. morgan was promoting..on the front it said "redeemer"..i was too shy so tracy (thanks lots, man!!) got it autographed for me..mr. morgan wrote "Megan, Now is the time for gOd's Favour. Reuben"..

at that point in time, i wanted to be baptised..but i wasnt too sure..i mean..wad if i strayed again..and this time..to the point of no return..? (if such a thg exists)

then..smtime near the prelims for my As, i was waiting for my mum to fetch me frm school at the busstop for bus 3 near the school's bball courts..

this lady approached me..

she had black graying hair and was dressed in red..

she asked me for directions as to which bus heads to the MRT..so i told her that she was at the right stop as there was onli one bus that came to that stop and it was headed for the station..

she thanked me and then started talking to me..

i, being the crazy trusting person who cant see the possible bad outcomes in talking to strangers (and lending them hps) ..answered her and made friendly conversation with her..

she told me she was there (Pasir Ris) to help out at a centre..think it was for children..then she asked me if i was a christian..

i said yes

she asked me if i knew where Jesus was

without hesitation, i pointed to my heart and said "here!"

she laughed and said "praise the Lord this girl knows where Jesus is!"

she went on to say that many whom she asked that qn to pointed to the sky and said "there"

when her bus arrived, we exchanged goodbyes, she boarded and i continued to wait for my mum..

AMAZING

i jus knew then that gOd wants me to publicly declare that i belong to him..that i shld be baptised..

who am i to disobey?

i was baptised on the 10122005..along with my friend puiki..

so far so good!!..i'm still attending church because i want to..i get all excited whenever i read or hear anythg about gOd..

sigh..

until now, whenever i think about that time, my heart skips several beats and i cant breathe..i'm jus so thankful that Jesus let me find him..that he lifted the veil from my eyes and let me know all i need to know for now..i'm so thankful that i get to serve the living Lord and strive to please him..

if i had to describe my relationship with gOd in 2 words..

it has to be gratitude & love

Lord, pls help me to always please you and to conduct myself in ways that will make you proud to be my gOd..may i never forsake you -- my first love..may i never cease to be excited and all fired up and lit up inside when i'm serving you..

Amen

gOd bLEsS

me

into your hand
i commit again
with all i am
for you Lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and i'm yours forever

Jesus i believe in you
Jesus i belong to you
you're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am

i'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
i'll trust in you

and i will live
in all of your ways
and your promises forever

Jesus i believe in you
Jesus i belong to you
you're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am

jus a thought..

i was jus standing at the window facing eastwards..

the wind was blowing in my face..my hair was jus dancing in the wind..so was my shirt..

i love the feeling..

feels jus like gOd whispering into my ear..talking to me..

i feel great peace..

u cant see the wind..the gentle breeze..

but u know it's there..

jus like gOd..

in a way..

u cant see him physically as a being..

but u know he's there..

i see him in faces of fellow christians..

and i take great comfort knowing that he resides in me..

still havent gotten over the time when he spoke to me thru the lady in red at the busstop outside MJ..the one near the bball courts..

wel..jus a thought as i am feeling the cool enveloping hands of the wind caress my face..playing catch with my hair..enjoying the peace of the almost dark sky..

love it.

gOd bLEsS

me

You know that
I love you
You know that
I want to know you so much more
More than I have before

These words are
From my heart
These words are
Not made up
I WILL live for you
I am DEVOTED to you

King of Majesty
I have one desire
Just to be with you my Lord
Just to be with you my Lord

Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul
And FOREVER and ever I'll give my praises to YOU
Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul
And FOREVER and ever I'll give my praises to YOU

Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul
And FOREVER and ever I'll give my praises to YOU

i jus read emay's blog..

it's real nice!!..i love reading her blog because it shows that i am not alone in possessing the excitement and ecstasy to praise gOd..i luvvit that she's jus so happy and finds merriment in praising and thanking our gOd for evrythg he's done for us..

in today's fast-paced and hectic society, we tend to lose focus real fast & easy..and thou we (especially moi) hate to admit it, we DO get influenced by pple arnd us..it's jus a matter of the EXTENT by which we are influenced..

so that blog serves as a reminder (for me) to thank gOd and not to be too preoccupied with worldly thgs (thgs that matter lots in this wrld)..a reminder not to overlook the simple thgs we are blessed with and provided with..a reminder to strive to look at thgs thru gOd's eyes..

btw.. her blog's : emaycountsblessings.blogspot.com

nyways..i read her blog and..he-he..decided to pinch one pt and be abit wu liao..

i wanna list my babies!!!!! =D

nyways..i thank gOd for giving me my babies..they make my day and cheer me up whenever i see \ play with them..they are the other constants in my life that i love..of course not as much as i love gOd..compared to the love i haf for gOd, it wld seem that i hate my babies..

thank you Lord for
1. my black beauty -- my silent piano
2. carty -- my sister
3. my sweetie pie -- my baby in church (shal not name him to protect the precious =p )
4. my handsome boi -- my cousin (he's 4 this yr..i think)

yea..s'bout it..

gOd bLEsS

me

i did smthg i think i shldnt do..

but i did anyways..i read tmr's daily bread in addition to today's.. =x ..the title realli caught my attention, man..

JOY OF LOVING JESUS

i mean..who can resist reading that??..i know i cant because i love loving Jesus..

The Lord is my rock, and my fortress and my deliverer; my God and my strength, in whom I trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, and my Hightower
Psalm 18:2

one pt sorta describes wad i am and wad i hope to keep on being..

and i quote " it's like that for those of us who are developing an ever-deepening relatnship with Jesus. though busy in our daily routines, we find that he increasingly becomes the backdrop to all of life. we love to hear frm him in his word, where we find out more new things about him and his ways, and we listen carefully to his direction for our lives. we increasingly enjoy times of prayer, as we speak with him and sense his communion with us. and we find ourselves longing for the day we will see him face to face.

"loving Jesus is not an escape frm life, nor is it a brief encounter on sm monastic retreat. it's the joy of staying in touch and the pleasure of knowing that regardless of what a day may bring, the best day is still to come -- Joe Stowell , OJ May 19 "

i love loving Jesus and i never want to stop loving him..i dont ever want to lose the zeal to learn more and to change myself to become the person he wants me to be..

i know there's so so so so so much more i have yet to learn about gOd..

i am still young as a christian..i haf so much room to grow..i haf so much in me that has to change..

mere words cannot describe the sense of gratitude and love i have for my gOd..

everytime i speak of the cruxifiction and resurrection, my throat tightens and my eyes start to tear..

even now, as i write this..

i'm sorry, Lord..i am not good with words as i know sm who possess that gift and flair..i cant even compose a song that realli nails wad i feel toward you..i have composed a few, but it, to me, isnt enough to realli grasp the depth of my feelings..

i love you, Lord Jesus, my gOd..

let it be said of me : i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith. now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day -- and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
2 Timothy 4:7-8

gOd bLEsS

me

sigh..

jus came back frm esplanade library...that plce's swarming with noisy school kids man..

i dont mind school kids..but i do mind their making lotsa noise at the esplanade..i dunno..i view that plce as one that various forms of art can be displayed..and to me..it sorta has this cultured air about it..like..it's meant for cultured pple and those who want to appreciate art..in other wrds..a quiet peaceful plce..

hahas..i'm jus being picky..

b4 i rushed to the library..i went down to indochine to get my check frm yq..

i dunno wad came over me..

but my tongue jus froze..like i cant say nythg..so basically..i didnt say anythg..at all..not even "hi"..

when i was walking to the mrt, i realised that was very rude of me..to not say hi..i mean..i've wrked bside these pple for 2 mths and i cant even say hi..?!

sigh..

i haf no excuse for this bad behaviour..except that saying "hi" has not yet bcm a habit for me..a good habit, if i might add..

sunand & sophie were kind enough to point it out to me too in their own different styles..

thanks, guys =]

lesson learnt : saying "hi" wont kill you..it wont do nyone ny harm..so say "HI" nxt time!!

gOd, help me not to forget this lesson..it is important that i remember it..help me to change my ways and not feel so scared all the time..half the time, my fears arent even rational..

gOd bLEsS

me

kk..here's the reading..the one i promised i'l post..bout the shepherd breaking the lamb's leg..

it's written by Steve Farrar..published in the Mar.Apr.May 2006 Our Journey..i quite like Our Journey (OJ) ..gOd speaks thru OJ to me..dont argue wit that cos it happens practically all the time..like smhow..the lessons for each day realli speak to me and makes me reflect and think..it applies alot to me..

nyways..here it is =D

Romans 5:3-5
(3) more than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, (4) and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, (5) and hope does not put us to shame, because gOd's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy SPirit who has been given to us.

It's a shocking fact that a good shepherd will break the leg of a wandering sheep. A loving, caring shepherd know that by taking smthg away, in time, the loss will be replaced by smthg far better..smthg to keep his lamb strong and protected.

It can seem heartless for gOd to take away sm of the thgs we so highly value in life. Relatnships, health, employment, and other treasured thgs can be swept away by the Father's loving hand. But when our hearts are broken, we can grow closer in intimacy with our shepherd as he develops our character (1 Peter 5:3-4). And that's a lesson that mus be learnt. For it's rough out there. Life can bring a steady stream of temptations. But as he wants us on his trail -- the safe trail of righteousness. Without the character-building wats of gOd, we wld become weak and defenseless. we wldnt be anle to turn frm desires & temptations that cld destroy us. That's why it's so important for us to be broken.

gOd has broken my "leg" (mine too.). Perhaps he has broken yours. That's why it's so painful. I'm sure glad he did it. For now I'm very mindful of staying close to Jesus. Most of us wld not choose to have a leg broken. But what's the alternative? When we refuse to follow the shepherd, we play right into the hands of the enemy who wants to destroy us. "Be sober-minded: be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour." (1 Peter 5:8)

Strong-willed sheep think much of their own plans and little about the enemy. They misread the trails of righteousness, thinking that a life of ease will lead to happiness. But that's the road to ruin. Brokenness brings us back to where we belong -- close to gOd's heart.

Steve Farrar

gOd keeps us close to protect us

gOd bLEsS

me

i'm stil thinking bout wad my friends & teachers said on saturday (130506) in church during our F.I.S.H. meeting..

we're doing the book of Judges and we jus got started on saturday with Judges 1 to 2:5 led by our leader, cindy (great job!! i learnt quite abit frm your lesson =] ) ..

the first part of Judges told of how Israel, gOd's chosen people, fought and won over territory for gOd..in the beginning of the chapter, gOd was their sole reason for attacking the Canaanites and the Perrizites and Adoni-Bezek and Sheshai and Ahiman and Talmai..because they heeded gOd's instructions and fought with fervour all in the name of gOd, they enjoyed success and victory with each battle..

then, in chapter 1:12, Israel started fighting battles for another reason - for example, for a lady's hand in marriage..the focus here..the reason why they were fighting has changed to smthg of selfish gain..the "what's in it for me" attitude surfaces in the people..

then from chapter 1:21 onwards, more losses rather than victories of Israel were recorded..in verse 24, eric pointed out that it seemed as thou the pple were trying to reenact wad happened in Joshua 2 (Rahab and the Spies)..but instead of the man frm Bethel asking to help them (like Rahab did), the men frm the house of Joseph asked the man to help them instead..it seemed like they did not trust the Lord to provide and help them..they'd rather take thgs into their own hand to try and secure their victory..

in chapter 1:28 onwards, Israel began using the Canaanites as forced laborers and lived amongst them..the Lord clearly said in earlier passages (sorry..cant remember the exact reference) that when conquering territories, all who dwell there before must die..Israel is not to live among them..so..they disobeyed..moreover..Israel were once slaves..in Egypt..cld they not remember the hardships they had to suffer under the Egyptians??..i cannot understand y they're doing this to the Canaanites..perhaps they forgotten or that they grew too proud..?

in chapter 2:1-3..the Lord confronted the people..he is angry and upset with his chosen people..and in verses 4-5, they jus wept and offered sacrifices to gOd..but this is definitely not wad gOd wanted..wad good is weeping and offering sacrifices when wad gOd probably wanted was for them to repent and to show it!!..asking for forgiveness and repenting are 2 VERY different thgs altogether..

but that was not wad struck me during the lesson..wad struck me was the parallel that mingwei brought up..that this deterioration of Israel's relatnship with gOd can happen and happened before in today's Christian's relatnship with gOd..

that thou we may start running the Christian race with one goal : for gOd ..we may end up running for a totally different reason..that thou we may do thgs that are deemed correct in the Christian world..the act itself may be correct and upright..but the reason that we do it for..may be wrong..

so one of the thgs that i brought hm frm saturday was that we must examine our motives before doing anythg..a lesson that i believe gOd is trying to teach me ever since i started wrking at Indochine..to be careful..we are to do wad gOd wants us to do with the correct reason and with the correct attitude..if not..i think it better not to do it at all..

another thg that also hit me..i asked "what if we see smone, a fellow christian, like that..as in..the relatnship between that person and gOd is thinning..the flame may be dying out..wad do we do to help them..IF we can help them at all?" ..

the answer i got was that 1. we cld talk to the person and ofcourse pray for the person .. and 2. we cld pray for gOd to send a “disaster” of sm sort to wake the person up..

the second alternatv sounded abit harsh to me..but then..it got me thinking about a lesson that i read once whilst taking my daily bread..that a good shepherd will break the leg of a wandering sheep..that a loving caring shepherd knows that by taking smthg away, in time the loss will be replaced by smthg far better..smthg to keep his lamb strong and protected..the verse given was Romans 5:3-5 ..

i’l post that lesson smtym soon as i think that it wil benefit many..especially those who are currently in a crisis of sm sort..it is like a reminder to keep the faith and to keep trusting in gOd not only in times of peace, but also in times of adversity..

remember that gOd keeps us close to protect us..remember that he ALWAYS has our welfare at heart..remember that he first loved you..

Christians, be careful..be wary that u do not fall into the trap of ritualism..of doing an act simply out of habit or of the wrong reason..check yourselves first, lest u call gOd’s anger upon yourselves..

dont love the acts that show pple here that ure a Christian..

love the gOd who loves you..

gOd bLEsS

me

happy 1-day-late mother's day to all mums out there!!!!..

hahas =D

i was jus deleting my msges in my phone when i came across the 2 msges that so made my day ytd..

one was frm my baby and the other frm my GrandBabe frm MJ..man..realli miss u guys..it's so weird..like we're onli in singapore..small puny dot..and yet we find it hard to meet up..or mebe it's cos u dun wanna meet up..hmmm..

it had better not b the second reason..ltr i come find u and give u such a spanking!! =x ..mwahahahhahahha =D ..jus kidding..hahas..

where was i..o yea..my baby and GrandBabe wished me a happy mother's day..hahas =] ..

i love being remembered..

like even thou our friendship wasnt the best of sorts in all of friendshipdom..we are still friends..actually..more than that..we are family..hahas =D

i love u..my baby and my GrandBabe..

miss u guys loads..

o and almost..wait..DIDNT forget..my little princess..hahas..hope u guys know which one is u..

love ya loads..

one small comment..WE REALLI GOTTA MEET UP SOON!!!!!..I WANNA WATCH OVER THE HEDGE!!!

gOd bLEsS

me

ooo..

the thought of creating mine own blog crossed my mind quite a couple a times the past few years..

but i nv realli quite enetertained it much cos i know i aint too good at keeping commitments..

but then..i jus thought..o wels..might as wel jus try and keep one..

who knows..it cld turn out to be quite fun!!..

hahas =]

wel..shal update this blog when i haf smthg to voice out..

o yea!!..almost forgot..i'd like to thank Nish-tits for coining the simple but cute name for me =] ..i kinda like it..sorta grows on me..hahas..think it's cos i am a simple person..so it appeals to me..hahas..nyways..thx nish!!..love ya loads..

gOd bLEsS

me