peace . love . joy

happy (late) christmas & happy boxing day, y'all =]

the carnival on 23rd went great!
the turkish ice-cream sold like hotcakes and pple realli had fun (i hope)! the turkish guy who came down to do the ice-cream-mess-with-your-head act had fun too, watching the kids and other more matured patrons squeal and scream when he pulled a trick on them =D

the childrens' party was brilliant =]
i know the dancers and the puppeteers had fun! it was realli amusing to see the kids mimic u: i was pushing up lose strands of my hair (the shorter strands wldnt stay tied up, wad with all the jumpin and bouncin) in btwn moves and sm of the kids followed me =D *so cute*

CHRISTMAS was *how do i put this* God blessed and graced.
i woke up with a sore throat and runny nose (think i'm getting a cold), and i had to argue and debate my way thru one irritating p6 so he wld cooperate and deliver his lines. had to get the costumes right for my p6s, last minute fittings for the kings' crowns and gowns, go thru the whole thg twice (with lotsa glitches), rushed my mary, joseph & lil Jesus into their costumes and out into the tent. i was realli worried the whole thg wldnt go well enough, and i'd be disappointed. more afraid that a.Mag wld be disappointed *i realli dont wanna disappoint her*. in the end, the mike wasnt available for my soft-spoken girls who stil wldnt throw their voices after all the training, the music cld not be played as backgrnd cos the actors' voices cldnt be heard over the stereo, sm pple forgot their lines (AND didnt know how to improvise), baby Jesus cried when Mary spoke, but GOD was with us thru it all. i know that for a fact because more thgs cld have gone wrong, i cld have thrown a tantrum and be totally childish and upset, the kids cld have lost interest, but hey! none of that happened =] all of the "cld haves" remained "cld haves", Thank the Lord~!!

had pizza with my mother's side of the family for lunch (didnt help my throat one bit: woke up this morn with phlagm, runny nose and chills), aren wldnt stop singing the nickelodeon's version of the twelve days of christmas! it was cute at first, but believe me, a 5 yr old babbling on and on and on more or less incoherently about the first 5 days of the twelve because he cldnt remember the other days is kinda nerve-grating.

anyways, i wanna thank:

• cindy, daena & puiki for the mousepad with my name in GOLD =D *AAA*
• a.Mag for the realli cute snowman hook =] (smhow i really luvvit..i think i'm a lil off these days..getting happy at the littlest thgs)
• a.Jaslin & u.Bernard for the red&black bee on a swing
• TIM~!! for the lemon-lime scented BUBBLES & the christmas CD both wound with GOLD ribbon =D (thanks sooooooooo much, tim!!)
• u.Noel, a.Christina, jaryl, jeshua for the candle & badge ("always picks the right moment : beware! she packs a punch!" indeed =D)
• u.Albert, a.SiewPing, victor, calvin & joyce for the bodyShop bath thg: CRANBERRY~!! gosh, how'd u guys know i love cranberry??!!
• u.BK, a.Rosie, Shawn & joash for the lovely earrings =]
• u.MC, a.LL, rachel, Rebecca & daniel for the funny coin purse =x
• a. Puaylin & gang for the cool notebook (mebe instead of saying "PEACE!" we shld say "GRACE!" when we greet each other nxt time)
• a.Shirley, u.SY & (the infamous) AREN for the game tree thg =] (mummy & daddy allows us to go stay over one more time for mahjong b4 school re-opens *YEA*)
• u.Tiong, a.KweeTheng & Iryssa for the chocolates (which i cant eat *sob* cos my eyes'll turn red)
• u.Tony, a.Maureen, Angie & mark go-go for the soft bag =D

man, this is like sm Oscar speech, HAHA!

i like it when school's not open. i'm free to do as much as i want and spend as much time as i want in church for God. i know that God is everywhere and not just in church, but in church is where i KNOW i can find other christians who love Jesus and strive to be close to Him. i think that's what i'm looking for: Christian friends whom i can talk to and be with and be encouraged by and encourage in return. we really arent meant to be alone and try to walk the christian walk alone, thinking that all we need is God beside us. that is NOT WRONG in itself, but think again: how does God speak to us? He speaks thru the Bible, thru our thoughts, thru OTHER PPLE. dont shut one of God's avenues of reaching us up by not talking to and mixing with other pple of God.

everyday shld be Christmas! then all of us wld put on our best clothes, go to church happy and alive, putting in all our effort and giving our bests to Jesus in lil thgs we do like sitting in the pews listening attentively, dancing for God, singing carols, acting...that's wad it shld be =] kinda like renewal time..

thank you, God, for Christmas. thank you for Jesus. thank you, Jesus, for the Holy Spirit. thank you for calling us, unworthy and unclean, to be Your children and people. we fall away ever so easily, and are weak. and yet, You still love us so much. that's why i love You, Lord. i try to return Your love, that which is so great. i can only hope to return it fully, though i know i cannot. i am really thankful for Your grace and mercy. i dont deserve it. thank you for gracing the carnival, and christmas celebrations. i pray Lord, that You lay Your healing hand on those of us who are tired frm the events, those who are recovering frm illnesses, and those of us who are sick. i pray that You heal us completely. thank you for putting pple in my life to encourage and push me on. thank You for knowing me and loving me. i pray that You teach me to be more like You each day and strengthen me inside. thank You Lord for everythg You've given me. Amen.

Happy Boxing Day, all =]

when i was in kindergarten, i wanted to be:
a cashier at NTUC
an astronaut
a pretty princess in a fairy tale (i liked Rumpelstiltskin)

when i was in primary school, i wanted to be:
a teacher
an astronaut
the cafeteria lady
a singer
an actress

when i was in secondary school, i wanted to be:
a doctor
a historian
an astronaut
an archeologist
an artist (painter)

when i was in junior college, i wanted to be:
an astronaut
smone who wrks at the science centre
an egyptologist
a SIA flight stewardess
a tour guide
a missionary

now, i want to be:
a little girl again

i miss my childhood. i miss play-pretend. i remember they had a big playground set in kinderworld at Toh Crescent (now demolished), me and my friend wld make believe we were princess, and (i pretended) i had a sky blue velvet gown all the way to the floor, long hair, and high heels. we'd walk arnd holding up (pretend) hems of our long skirts.

nthg mattered then. jus us, our imagination and sm space to use. TV didnt even matter then. onli Sesame Street and sm cantonese drama where they were always frying smthg cld tear me away frm my dolls and the garden outside.

oh well, life must move on. soon, i'l be 20. soon i'll be 50. soon i'll be breathing my last. scary. at least God promised us He'd be with us all the way. God is great in that way: He keeps His promises. it's amazing that God is our friend and comforter, our saviour and redeemer, yet, He's still the awesome and magnificent and regal and sovereign God whom we respect and fear. He's so many thgs at the same time. brilliant, huh? i know i can face anythg and do anythg with Him by my side.
heck, i can even fly if He wants me to.

yep, God is Good all the time =]

Oh, pls pray for my pcm. they're headed to Myanmar today afternoon. pray that nthg bad happens to them, and that all will be as God planned it. pray that they'll be touched by God and the pple they meet will be touched too.

I just came back from 3D 2N at church. Am a little tired, a little high, a little worried, quite excited =]

We watched “scary movie 4” and “stay alive” at (I think 1 \ 2 am in the morn in the attic with the lights off). SM4 was kind of silly and aint that funny (except for the “sushi sashimiiiiii….” Part). SA was better. I like the story line. Should make my brothers watch it. Then maybe they’ll STOP HOGGING THE COMPUTER AND INTERNET LINE.

The lady Elizabeth (I think that was her name) was scary. I don’t like her eyes: they’re too black for her. SA is my kind of scary movie. I can get a little creeped out but still remain sane. But I don’t like that they cut short their deaths. Like the cop in the car, his mouth was supposed to be ripped open length-wise, all they showed was him in his car, and they showed a shot of his car with the inside splashed suddenly with blood. Not very jing cai. But Elizabeth’s house was great. Creepy. She seems to like her scissors very much. That Nathaniel scared me la. Suddenly decided to “boo!” me. See this: dark room, you’re watching a movie that’s kinda creepy, but not downright freaky. U cover your ears cos u know music makes it a hell lot more frightening, turn to your left slowly, and smthg dark jumps at you, clutches your arms and go “BOO!!”. I got such a shock I almost cried man. Then Gabriel came, and the rest of the movie wasn’t as scary as it cld have been. Scary movies are more fun when u watch them with a grp of crazy pple, sitting tgd on the floor. It’s cosier, and yes, u can scare pple silly.

I like the dances we’re doing =]
Puppets were great too~!!
Pple, remember to SMILE and BOUNCE!! It’s the kids we’re reaching out to and energy attracts and is infectious. U DON’T want to perform and play with a grp of kids who act like they’re dying.

I like the sound system thg at the back! So many buttons and slides~!! And I feel so tall sitting on those tall stools =]
(U know, if Yap stands on a step lower than me, he’s my height. I’m so short =[ ]

I CAN PLAY THE BASS~!!
Here’s my thank-you speech: thank you Yap, Gabriel and Nat for teaching me. And the TTB for providing that Bass =P HAHA

Ooo, I think I like being carried. Feels like I’m sitting on clouds that seem to be able, and not able at the same time, to take my weight. How comes u suddenly decided to carry me huh?? I’m pretty sure I didn’t have PLEASE CARRY ME slapped across my forehead and further emphasized with flashing neon lights since I wasn’t even thinking of being carried.

I like Go Fish, tai-di and bridge (even though I haven’t mastered any). Had fun playing with u guys.

It’s nice to serve God tgd: u have fun tgd and u take care of each other. Just reminded me of the song we’re opening with:

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, we’re there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Here and now its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
All our dreams have no limitations
That's what its all about

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (each other strong)
We’re not the same We’re different in a good way
Together's where we belong

We're all in this together
Once we know That we are We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, we’re there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

We're all here and speaking out with one voice
we're going to rock the house (YEAH YEAH!)
the party's on now everybody make some noise
come on scream and shout

We've arrived because we stuck together
Champions one and all

We're all in this together
Once we know That we are We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true
We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see There’s a chance
That we have
And we take it

Wild cats sing along
Yeah, you really got it goin' on
Wild cats in the house
Everybody say it now
Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Lets get to it
Time to show the world

We're all in this together
Once we know That we are We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true
We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see There’s a chance
That we have
And we take it

Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Let's get to it
Come on everyone!

God, I pray that what we do is pleasing to your eyes and pleasant to your ears. I pray for the event, that everything will happen according to Your plan. I pray that no harm whatsoever will come to the people involved and the people we will meet. I pray that You watch over us and send your angels to guard us. Lord, may all we do bring a smile to your face and that You will be proud to be called our God. Thank you for sending your son to die for our sins. For washing us clean and making us whole. Thank you for being our God, our God of second chances, our provider and our protector. I pray that we will be forever grateful and that we’ll never forget why we love You. I’m really happy that You love me. I feel so blessed to be able to serve You. I’m very thankful that You’ve promised me time to set things right with You. I’m rest assured in Your promises because I know that unlike man, You will never break them. Thank you for taking care of us these past 3 days and letting us practise without any accidents happening. Keep us forever in the palm of Your hand, Lord. I love You, God. Amen.

gOd bLEsS

me

doctor said smthg triggered off the allergy reaction..problem is we dont know what exactly caused it..cld be the air (which i doubt) cld be stress (mebe, but not very likely) cld be sausages (God, NO!! please!!) cld be vitagen or cheese or chocolates..man, the list goes on and on and on and on and on....*is there ANYTHG i CAN and LIKE to eat??!!*

rem i said that my right eye's shortsighted and my left's longsighted??..and that last time, it was my good \ left eye that was red??..well..now my weak \ right eye's red..and it is real uncomfortable..s'y sm of u saw me drip-drippin' eyedrops ever so often on saturday..if u've gots time to spare, can plse pray for my eyes?..i really value them..and wel..they're my life..if i lose my sight..let's not go there, k?

anyways, drama tmr, most likely on wednesday too..dance wholeday frm tmr til thurs..children's party on saturday and christmas drama experience for kids on monday..busybuSYBUSY~!! i love being busy for gOd..but not TOO busy til i lose focus..

shivs~!! MSG (NOT MSN) me when ure free after christmas..which is after nxt monday, k??..i gots u a present and i DONT want to keep it til nxt yr..plus, i really want to have coffee \ vodka+cranberry with u =] *enough physical exercise, i'm beat*

i hate getting presents for pple..i dont mind giving stuff..i luvvit, in fact..i jus hate the planning what to get (cos i believe in giving each person a different gift), what to write in cards, wrapping, and finding that person to give the gift to..wayy too much work, man, for a lazyBum like me..

BUT this yr, i decided to be a not-so-lazyBum and got presents for every member of my pcm grp..which is NOT a single digit number..wrote lil notes, wrapped them (sm of them are real hard to wrap like that frying pan)..now comes the worst task : FINDING THE GIFT'S RIGHTFUL OWNERS..

but hey! i love unwrapping stuff..so let's spread the cheer, pple~!!..mwahahaha..hopefully i didnt miss out anyone in the grp..hmmm..

shawn jus left for tekong..BUT he will be back for christmas =] *will be missin u til then, ShawnLee..mwahahaha =D

cheers~!!

me

ytd was drama prac in the afternoon and then eragon at night

(just fyi : eragon's so NOT worth it..think i've been spoiled by LOTR and Aragorn *sigh*)

drama prac was weird..first time leading..kinda went alright..jus that the p6s were a lil..how shall i put it..self-conscious..big talkers when others were acting their part, but silent as a mouse and still as the night when it comes to their turn..they gotta break outta that, man..they've one week left~!!

then danced a lil with a.Mag, daena and carty..so fun =] ..i positively absolutely definitely LOVE SUPERHERO & GET UP AND DANCE & KING OF MAJESTY !!

they're so upbeat and..well..nice =D

it's great to dance for Jesus..even if you know \ think you cant dance, dance for all you're worth and dance for God..i'm pretty sure God'll watch and will love it..even be tickled by it =]

talking to a.Mag ytd was great..reminded me of why i chose to stay with children's ministry..to have a chance to be part of God's plan for kids..that we should not look down on them because they are young..sometimes, God's plan for us starts when we are little..like Samuel and David =]

i like the name Mishael =] mebe someday IF i get married and IF i have a boy, i'll call him Mishael..it means who is like God..

here's a lil encouragement for you :

Did You Know

did you know there's someone loving you
He lives in me and other people too
did you know He died on the cross
did you know His name is Jesus

i want to thank You for everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
to die on a cross for my sin
to die on a cross for my sin

did you know He rose from the dead
is risen now He will be back again
did you know He's loving you today
did you know He's the only way

i want to thank You for everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
to die on a cross for my sin
to die on a cross for my sin

gOd bLEsS

me

When I wake in the morning

I will sing, sing I love You.

I love You

As I close my eyes

To sleep at night, I will worship

Worship You

I love You Jesus I love You

I love You Jesus I love You

yesterday all my troubles seem so far away..

i got confirmed and accepted into membership of Faith Methodist Church ytd =]

took me one year frm baptism to get that membership (though i've no idea why i need it..shhh!) so 10122005 and 10122006 are special dates for me =] but i'd have to say 16062005 was more significant..reuben morgan concert..read my testimony..one of my first posts here..hahas, not gonna retype..

anyways, after church, went to meet suf..plan was to go vivo, hang arnd and catch up..

vivo wasnt as big as i thought it'd be..kinda boring actually..considering i'm NOT shopper-material, NOT loaded and i DONT realli like crowded places..dont realli like getting disoriented and feeling lost cos thgs are happening in a blurry fast-forward mode..*shudders*..

BUT

i did like the playground and the wading pool outside =] ..lovely..too bad we didnt bring a change of clothes..hahas..mebe another time..

ate chicken noodles..didnt tast that great..definitely not worth the $$..but heck, u learn where NOT to go..

got a lil tired of vivo..decided to go underwater world~!!..

just realised that it costs $1 less to walk across than to take the bus..hahas =D

underwater world entrance fee : $19.50

OMG~!! so freaking ex~!!

so suf and i ended up appeasing ourselves with coke and green tea and a walk along siloso (my favourite)..

saw a 2 nice ang-mohs..cold blue eyes and tall enough..hahas..

oh oh~!! i proved to suf that there were fish in the lagoon thg =] *told you so!*

the luge thg costs $8..that's 4 bowls of wanton mee..not as satisfying as wanton mee i'd reckon..no kick..

it was realli fun, man..hanging with suf..i think pple bond more when it's just 2..u form a dyad..

"social interaction in dyads are typically more intense than in larger groups since, in a one-to-one relationship, neither member shared the other's attention with anyone else..thus, dyads have the potential to be the most meaningful social bonds we ever experience.
like a stool with 2 legs, dyads have a characteristic instability. both members of a dyad must actively sustain the relationship; if either one withdraws, the group collapses. by contrast, a large group is inherently much more stable as it can survive the loss of many members."

~ Georg Simmel (1858 - 1918)
Macionis, John J. and Plummer, Ken 2005 "Groups, Organisations and the Rise of the Network Soiety" Sociology A Global Introduction third edition, pp. 137-138. Pearson Education Limited

funny how i was never bored..hoped you were never bored too, suf~!!..still remember the shaking of the arse and the gender-confused "zee" mohammed ali guy..mwahahhaha =D i have GOT to meet him!

let's save up and go underwater world and see the lousy fishies..this time, we'll bring beach wear, BUT we aint playing in the sea!..cant think of the sea without thinking of my friends peeing in it..gross, pple..pure grossness..

btw, how's your head??..hope u didnt get a bruise there..my head's fine..no blueblack =] see whose skull is stronger
now we know : sand is slippery..HAHAS =D

i'm gonna get u a pair of bright purple trunks for christmas =P

take care

me

"if you expect nothing, you will never be disappointed"

i never really thought of that saying until recently. now that i come to think of it, it's true : you cannot know the meaning of disappointment, if you did not have expectations of something or someone.

so wrapped up in our own worlds, few of us have really been able to display the virtues of selfless-ness all our lives. that in all we do, we think of others, never ourselves first. to me, that is impossible. because no matter what you think of, it always boils down to me, Me , ME. that's just the way humans are. practically no exceptions.

i'm a little cautious about the whole idea of "human nature" and our "natural inclinations \ tendencies" because the line between nature and human-influenced is, at least to me, quite a blurry one especially when it comes to character.

anyhow, i was disappointed yet again by, surprise, myself.

the worst thing to be disappointed in is yourself. that holds true for some, myself included.

if you take the arguement of the earlier mentioned saying, reason is because i expected too much of myself. simple as that.

pride.

i have too much of it in me.

pride, too much loitering in the imaginary world, and the assumption that everything's all right. terrible mix, i assure you.

not going to go into details here. but let's just say certain things irritate you, in an effort not to use the p*** word. and in my case, little things make life joyful and little things also have the capacity to irritate me no end. when i get angry with something (usually someone having done something, actually), i have to pause and take a breather for fear of doing \ saying something i would later regret. and in that time, i think why exactly am i angry. and it comes down (more often than not) to myself. outwardly, i blame others, inwardly, i blame myself. and that sucks. because i end up being disappointed in myself and really angry with myself. and noone and nothing can cool me down, except myself.

the "self" really is an interesting being. gosh!

cant believe i actually cried because of that stupid thg.

but, as always, gOd has a plan. and His plan is always the best. and it will always work out. and when i look back, i would most probably not have it any other way. *see, i remember my stuff well, hah*

i dont doubt that, dont take me wrongly. i dont doubt that He always has a plan, and that His plan is always the best, and it will always work out, and when i look back, i would most probably not have it any other way. i dont doubt that.

hah

just thought of something. i was upset b4 because of my German oral test. i disappointed myself, and my teacher (who said so herself that it was disappointing). and at that moment, i was really down. felt that nothing could cheer me up. you know, one of those moments where you felt that if you could turn back time, you would without hesitation? but somehow, i cant remember what really happened, i managed to pull myself back together *thank gOd i am not humpty-dumpty* and move on.

this disappointment is far greater in magnitude as compared to that one. perhaps that one was a warning \ test for me by gOd. to slowly get me accustomed to disappointments and setbacks for a major one. not say accustomed, lah, but more like, hmmm. what's that word? maybe "used to"? so that i wont feel like it's the end of the world and try to kill myself.

in that sense, yes, i am thankful. and i always have the assurance that gOd will always be there for me. and other people who think about me when i dont expect them to.

i guess not expecting anything is great. makes the surprise sweeter.

but is that really possible?

Chicks and ducks and geese better scurry
When I take you out in the surrey,
When I take you out in the surrey with the fringe on top!

Watch that fringe and see how it flutters
When I drive them high steppin' strutters.
Nosey pokes'll peek thru' their shutters and their eyes will pop!

The wheels are yeller, the upholstery's brown,
The dashboard's genuine leather,
With isinglass curtains y' can roll right down,
In case there's a change in the weather.

Two bright sidelight's winkin' and blinkin',
Ain't no finer rig I'm a-thinkin'
You c'n keep your rig if you're thinkin' 'at I'd keer to swap
Fer that shiny, little surrey with the fringe on the top!

All the world'll fly in a flurry
When I take you out in the surrey,
When I take you out in the surrey with the fringe on top!

When we hit that road, hell fer leather,
Cats and dogs'll dance in the heather,
Birds and frogs'll sing all together and the toads will hop!

The wind'll whistle as we rattle along,
The cows'll moo in the clover,
The river will ripple out a whispered song,
And whisper it over and over:

Don't you wisht y'd go on forever?
Don't you wisht y'd go on forever?
Don't you wisht y'd go on forever and ud never stop

In that shiny, little surrey with the fringe on the top!

I can see the stars gettin' blurry,
When we drive back home in the surrey,
Drivin' slowly home in the surrey with the fringe on top!

I can feel the day gettin' older,
Feel a sleepy head on my shoulder,
Noddin', droopin' close to my shoulder, till it falls kerplop!

The sun is swimmin' on the rim of a hill;
The moon is takin' a header,
And jist as I'm thinkin' all the earth is still,
A lark'll wake up in the medder.

Hush, you bird, my baby's a-sleepin'!
Maybe got a dream worth a-keepin'
Whoa! you team, and jist keep a-creepin' at a slow clip clop.
Don't you hurry with the surrey with the fringe on the top!

i still cant believe exams AND school are over..it seems like only ytd when i was going for the sociology interview with Caroline Pluss..and the tea thg at the hotel..meeting Shirley, CH, Caroline Pluss, Kian Woon, Jonathan London, Geoffrey Benjamin..going for HSS orientation..meeting new pple..new friends..

if one sem passes so quickly, 4 years would be really really really short and brief..hope i have enough guts to socialise arnd enough to make life-long friends..

*sigh*

i miss German classes..i miss my tiny group of friends there..gabriel, john, yaxin, kelvin, wendi..aint close at all..but we help each other in class..then there's those whom i got to know after sem : victoria & daniel..

gonna be super busy now..christmas is cmg =]

helping out in church..evry tue, thurs, sat..mebe even fridays..depending on the kids schedule..it's gonna be fun =D

ooo..show u my babies \ darlings frm Kidz Jam..(my "original one true" baby came only once..didnt get to take a photo with him..)

(left to right) YingXuan, Jolene(?), Jaslyn, HernEe

they're so adorable arent they =D

i SO look forward to meeting them each Kidz Jam session on saturday afternoons..they realli make my day..

HernEe & YingXuan playfully poking me and running away wanting me to chase them..playing with their name tags..jaslyn telling me abt her sister (jolene) and sitting on my lap..displaying her "strength" by punching other leaders' hands..she has an awful cough though..hope she gets better..

gots lotsa dates =] *feel so remembered & loved & missed*

hahas..

gots 2 dates for flying kites, 3 for zoo, 1 for night safari, (tentative one for cycling & coffee *shivs~!! let's go for both =] when u free??)

ooo..and jus had a movie & lunch date with mahes =] ..hope we remain friends for many many many many more years to come~!! *cheers* ..really enjoy crapping with u..dont feel pressured to put up a front \ facade..i ESPECIALLY enjoyed making fun of the pokemon mascots at jp on tues with u..HAHAS =D

Lamedh

(89) Your word, O LORD, is eternal; it stands firm in the heavens.
(90) Your faithfulness continues through all generations; you established the earth, and it endures.
(91) Your laws endure to this day, for all things serve you.
(92) If your law had not been my delight, I would have perished in my affliction.
(93) I will never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life.
(94) Save me, for I am yours; I have sought out your precepts.
(95) The wicked are waiting to destroy me, but I will ponder your statutes.
(96) To all perfection I see a limit; but your commands are boundless

gOd bLEsS & have a great day ahead, sizzlers =]

me

man, this is simply intelligence to the core..

*standing ovation*

current craze :
Bear in the Big Blue House
http://www.disneychannel-asia.com/DisneyChannel/playhouse/friends/bearinthebigbluehouse/
Tiny Planets (Bing & Bong)
http://www.tinyplanets.com/

reason :
the puppetry skills are quite solid for BBBH
the lessons taught for both are realli sweet
the presentation's beautifully innocent & fresh
i love the songs =]

(i onli managed to find BBBH's opening and good bye song..enjoy)


~ the opening (theme) song ~


~ the goodbye song ~

dont b afraid to relive your childhood (if u want)..i do it all the time..

have fun, babies =D

me

know wad i'd like for christmas??..

i'd like to see & touch & smell & taste & hear snow..

i've seen snow b4..but that was when i was little..in Canada..cant remember much..apparently, i fell sick (fever) and therefor had to be cooped up in the trailer for most of the day..

to curl up on a plush sofa in front of the fireplace, with the decorated christmas tree in one corner of the cabin..hot chocolate with marshmellows on the coffee table..

jus sitting there, listening to bing crosby's "white christmas"..watching the fire dance & snow fall frm the heavens outside..

lovely

guess u cld say i want a white Christmas..

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten, and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

Happy Christmas

me

infectious laughter =D

this kid's so cute~!!

plus his laughter's like..staccato-ed demi semi quavers =D

There are times in our lives
The Lord may lead us through
A lifeless, barren desert
A time of testing too

But desert times can be
A place of special growth
Where God can do a work
And let His healing flow

I know that in these times
We don't feel God is there
We feel so very distant
And lost without His care

But God is there beside you
To bring you to a place
Of cool refreshing waters
Flowing with His grace

But for the present moment
You maybe in a drought
Don't give up on your faith
And don't you start to doubt

God is always faithful
And He will walk with you
Through the darkest moments
He'll be leading you.

~ M. S. Lowndes

Just completed my first paper : HS 102 (Singapore Society in Transition)

T’wasn’t too bad, actually..I mean..I did get tired halfway thru my first essay about “critically discussing the dominant ideas that characterize Singapore’s official ideology of the political leadership and considering whether and how such ideas have gained legitimacy or have been challenged”..But, thank gOd, I pressed on and finished 15 whole minutes before time was up =]

There was so much I wanted to write, but then it didn’t really answer the question..*wish I had more time*

Then, smway into the exam, CH decided to stop by my desk..Ever had a teacher stop by your desk and not move?..It’s nerve-irritating, I tell you..Cldnt write anythg cos i was stil deciding how to word my sentence..So I jus looked up and smiled..Seemed to appease him cos he walked away after smiling back..

*mebe he takes pleasure in makin others feel funny*
(just a stupid thought here)
DON’T KILL ME IF YOU’RE CH~!!
(have this weird feelin that he knows our blog addresses..i'm jus being paranoid)

Didn’t know exams were that draining..I’ve never had an exam where I was literally squeezed dry by the time it ended..
Science had never really had that effect on me..Hmmm..Guess it was either I knew or didn’t know the answer and I’d just leave it at that..Sociology’s different..U can argue your way out..
*which may or may not be a good thing, depending on how u look at it*

My eye’s been twitching periodically, man..It’s weird and irritating..Hope there’s nthg wrong with it (it’s my good eye)

Cldnt eat again..it's gettin worse..i jus took one tiny bite, and felt like heaving out all the contents in my stomach *which practically is nothing*

i honestly think it's the school environment..i eat like a horse outside school..

Amazingly, gOd decided to spare me the embarrassment, and my stomach did not, I repeat, DID NOT grumble at all until I reached home~!! =]

(Rina, u look sweet in pink =] )

So that’s one down, 3 to go. And then..

FLY KITE
GO TO THE ZOO & NIGHT SAFARI
READ WHAT I WANT TO READ

Yea, that’s pretty much wad I wanna do after the exams. .

Anyone wanna come with?

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worse,that you must not quit.

~ Author Unknown

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goodness~!!

this is just so ME..

jus completed my journal..CH was right..in a wayy..talkin with friends helps clarify stuff (CH doesnt like us to use that word "stuff" but he used it a LOT in his lecture =p)

didnt know how to answer the journal qns :
1. what is "Civil Society"?
2. How does it affect the state of democracy in Singapore?
(take a look at this :
http://www.singapore-window.org/sw03/030916sj.htm )

the first was alrd hard for me..cos i didnt realli understand what it is exactly..an intangible space filled by grps of pple who have certain interests at heart that they wanna voice out \ make it known publicly?..hmmm..

so i focussed on the second qn, naturally =D

talked to my personal professor, bryan (see how highly i think of u, o great one? =p)..he's not actually a professor, but more of a law student who's my age (actually younger)..hahas..but he helps me in my homework and life..

didnt have any idea wad to write b4 speakin to bryan..after talking with him, i suddenly had so much to say =D

we were talkin abt democracy in singapore..in which areas the govn actually enforces the idea..and how UN-democratic (to use bry's words =p) they realli are..abt CSOs supposedly "enforcing" democracy..but encounter lotsa difficulties, restrictions and such in actually voicing opinions..man..wad i wld give to have bryan in the exam hall with me..hahas =D

in my opinion (which realli doesnt count for much), democracy is kinda sad an idea..

simply put, it means "POWER TO THE PEOPLE"..

but then, the pple elect their government, who then leads the nation, who has personal aims to fulfil..

aims like for the case of Singapore, social integration, economic progress and political domination..which isnt inherently bad..hmmm..

they claim to have the nation's interest at heart, but do they realli?..that's one pathetic thg noone can prove or disprove..

even if the people get to vote on policies, their decisions can be influenced..realli easy job to do, esp if ure the PAP..jus remind them of how comfy and great Singapore is under you (i'm not saying it isnt, cos it is..at least for me, a daughter of a middle-class father)..worked for the last coupla elections..

makes us, Singaporeans, sound like we're a lil better than robots..we know wad we wld like to have, and the govn knows wad we wld like to have..the govn gives us a carrot, we take it..they give us another carrot, we take it..so..mechanical..

i dont think this is confined onli to Singapore tho..shall read up on this..take heart, pple!!..we will NEVER WALK ALONE

wad a weird weird world we live in..we influence smbody to get the thg we want..such a calculative, manipulative but oh so motivated world..

kinda makes u wonder what decisions were ACTUALLY yours..and not smone else's..

human beings are caring, violent, clever, stupid, cold, friendly..essentially weird living..things..

funny gOd made us that way..or did He? (think in terms of wad happened at the first temptation of eve)..

hmmm..

I thought today's sermon was good. It applies to practically everyone. Cos in life, we're bound to face situations which leave us feeling overwhelmed. And I thought it good that we should know wad to do in times like that..

Thanks, Pastor Moh Ying, for the lovely sermon =] (you've no idea how much I needed it)

The character we focussed on was Mary (Jesus' mother) in Luke 1 : 26-40

Wad we, as Christians, should do in the face of stressful \ overwhelming circumstances can be summarized in 3 steps :

1. Learn to LET GO
Luke 1 : 38
38And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word. And the angel departed from her.
· What is demonstrated here, is one word : FAITH
· Stop trying to figure out everything on your own (God does not intend for us to know everything, because this then forces us to be dependent on Him)
· Although things are out of your control, know that it is NEVER out of God’s control
Proverbs 3 : 5
5Trust in the LORD with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding
· We should work WITH God and not against Him
· TRUST that He knows best (because He really does!)
Psalms 138 : 8
8The LORD will perfect that which concerneth me; Thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever; forsake not the works of Thine own hands.
· God’s plan for our lives is often bigger, more painful, but always better
· Nothing in our lives is an accident; everything has a purpose.
· God looks at our lives from an eternal perspective, He is interested in preparing us for ETERNITY
· When we are overwhelmed, we get down on our knees, stretch out our hands in defeat and resignation, and depend entirely on God
· That is where God wants us : down on our knees
· Know that God has plans for your life: Great and Marvellous plans

2. Let Others help you
Luke 1 : 39-40
39And Mary arose in those days and went into the hill country with haste, into a city of Judah, 40and entered into the house of Zacharias and saluted Elizabeth.
· Mary went in search of Elizabeth
· Elizabeth was a Godly woman (who could pray for her)
· She was older (she could draw from past experiences to guide and advice Mary)
· She was also pregnant, also because of a miracle by God (she was going thru the same thing as Mary, and could identify with her. Since she was more “advanced” in her miracle, she could help her younger cousin)
· God NEVER meant for us to be alone or totally independent of each other
· We each need to find someone who is willing to journey thru life with us, who can keep us accountable
· We each need to find a STRONG BELIEVER to help us along

3. Let God give you strength
Benjamin Franklin said once “God helps those who help themselves” while this is true to a certain extent, God DID NOT say that.
Here’s where we can find strength (or rather some ways in which we can find strength in God) :
· PRAISE God for His goodness
- Praising and worshipping God creates a tremendous amount of energy
- When we take the focus off what we are occupied with, and turn our eyes upon Jesus, we feel re-energized
· THINK about God’s word
- In Luke 1 : 46-55, Mary sang a song unto God, shifting the focus away from herself, and onto Him
- Her song was made up of events that happened in the past, and shows just how well-versed she was with the Old Testament
- These days, we are pre-occupied with a lot of things, and our to-do list is practically endless
- Know that only a few things really matter \ must be done
- The Bible helps us CLARIFY VALUES, SOLIDIFY PRIORITIES, and RANK THE IMPORTANCE of tasks

Remain in firm reliance on God, Christians.

Learn to LIFT UP our troubles (and our entire lives) to God.
Learn to LET GO.
Learn to TRUST.

Micah 7 : 1 & 7
1I'm overwhelmed with sorrow! sunk in a swamp of despair! 7But me, I'm not giving up. I'm sticking around to see what God will do. I'm waiting for God to make things right. I'm counting on God to listen to me.

Don’t give up!
Trust God!
Stick around to see what God’ll do
And indeed, God WILL make things right.

Trust that God knows best and that He can be depended upon.

Be it unto me
According to your Word
According to your promises
I can stand secure
Carve upon my heart
The truth that sets me free
According to your Word O Lord
Be it unto me

You promised your word will deliver
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised us joy like a river
Lord we receive it from you
These things you have spoken
And you're bringing to pass
This world's disappearing
But your word will last

You promised to carry our sorrows
Lord, we believe it's true
You promised unending tomorrows
Lord we receive them from you
You'll be our Provider
In Your word it's revealed
By the strifes that You bore
Lord We have been healed

So be it unto me
According to your Word
According to your promises
I can stand secure
Carve upon my heart
The truth that sets me free
According to your Word O Lord
Be it unto me

~Don Moen, “Be It Unto Me”

gOd bLEsS

me

Kids in the Hall -- What?!

enjoy..

this is for those who are stressin out..

have fun~!!

i most probably wont be updating this blog too frequently in the near future (til 28112006) cos of my exams..

but to carry u guys thru wadever periods ure in now, be it times of rejoicing, or times of spiritual dryness, i wanna quote u this poem i found on my brother's desk..

Lord, Give Me Strength

Give us your strength, Lord.
Because sometimes things get tough,
and we are ready to quit.

Give us your love, Lord.
Because sometimes people reject us,
and we are tempted to hate.

Give us your eyes, Lord.
Because sometimes life gets dark,
and we lose our way.

Give us your courage, Lord.
Because often we are put under pressure,
and it's hard to do what is right.

Give us yourself, Lord.
Because our hearts were made for you,
and we will not rest until we rest in you.

~Mark Link, S.J.

gOd bLEsS and i'll see u as and when

me

Insane Bank Robbery

this is awesome!!..so farnay!!..

mwahahahhaha =D

enjoy, sizzlers!!

talking to shivs jus now made me voice out smthg i've been feeling quite a long time le..long as in a few weeks..

this is for the pple i've "confessed" to abt my crush on Q..pretty sure sm of u are happy (perhaps even relieved) that i've conceded defeat and resigned to the cold unforgiving reality of this world =]

~.~.~

me :
u know how smtimes, when we know for sure that the odds are stacked so high against us and wad we want is realli close to impossible..like a hair's breadth away frm impossible, we cease to hope..and resign ourselves to the fact that it'd be impossible..
and then we make up reasons why we concede defeat to make it less "painful" more so for ourselves than others..
i think it's happening to me..

shivs :
serious?! how so?

me :
u know wad

shivs : yes?

me :
like i'm bound to have to face the reality that my crush on Q will nv be more than a crush..
and "instinctively" i'd rather not waste time fantasizing and wishing and hoping for a dream that will practially nv come true..and focus on smone else who can give me what i want at this point in time..
makes much more sense
i mean..y wld i want to make myself upset and like "pine" over smone who'll probably never ever feel the same way abt me?
it's ridiculous!
i'd much rather be happy than depressed..

shivs :
yea
i know what you mean

~.~.~

yea..feel a lil lighter now..not realli happier..but lighter..wadever that means..haha..

mebe meetin suf, shir and the others nxt saturday for a get tgd of ex-mates!! =]

depends on myself, and also my parents..yes, i still listen to my parents even though i'm 1 yr away frm the big 2 0, their opinions matter..i'm the guai kia..while i'm still living under their roof, it's safest and the most diplomatic to play & live by their rules..that way, the chances of leading a relatively peaceful existence are higher..at least in my house..

shir called my bluff..darn!!..

~.~.~

me :
i'm not sure if i wanna go not
cos i'm havin my exams the following week

shir :
hmmm..
just go for a while lo?
u cant study at night anyways rite?
lol..

~.~.~

hahas..i'l try my best to finish all my wrk b4 then, ya??..

hopefully, we'll meet nxt saturday, guys =]

til then

me

this i got frm OJ Sep . Oct . Nov 2006 p.31

i thought it realli good and useful..dont look at the scripture and say "o, i've seen this b4, i know that already." look at the verses and be still and listen to wad gOd has to say..smtimes, wad we need is a repeated promise, or a repeated command..gOd knows what we need..

be still and listen

To bolster your faith in difficult seasons, meditate and pray God’s truth :

Pray, “Lord, I believe…

"Trials will come"
1 Peter 4 : 12-13
Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.

“Trials forge my faith”
James 1 : 2-4
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

“Your hand is on the thermostat”
1 Corinthians 10 : 13
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

“I can abide under your faithfulness”
Psalm 91 : 2 , 4
I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust”…and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.

“I can trust you when I am afraid”
Psalm 56 : 3-4
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?

“Thinking about Jesus’ sacrifice brings perseverance”
Hebrews 12 : 3
Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.

“This trial will increase my faith”
Matthew 14 : 30-31
But when [Peter] saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”

“This trial will teach me how to forgive”
Luke 23 : 34
And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

“This trial will teach me how not to rely on myself”
2 Corinthians 1 : 8-9
For we do not want you to be ignorant, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.

“This trial will teach me how to depend on the Holy Spirit”
Galatians 2 : 20
It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

gOd bLEsS

me

SMILES - 10 TAB
1 Tablet 3 Times Daily

May Cause bliss
Grins, Sparkly Eyes
LEE KUI BAO
S~~~~~~~~

today, i decided to dress up a lil..not too much..

church is a great place to be =] ..it is there that i feel ultra safe from anythg the world an throw at me..it is there that i feel secure surrounded by christian brothers & sisters..it is also there that i can try out new clothes =D

yea..i wore wad i wore on last sunday today..the green top + jeans mit my hair tied up and the GOLDEN earrings and heels..

mahes didnt recognise me at first =] ..same reaction as daena..if i remember correctly..hahas..

i think at a glance i looked alright..but upon closer scrutiny, i dont look that good..but it's ok..i think i look good enough for gOd..and if i'm good enough for Him, i'm good enough for anybody else..hah =D

anyways..the reason i usu dress better on wednesdays is cos there's smone i see on wednesdays that i admire..and therefore wld like that person's acknoledgement that i exist..and if possible, impress that person..which is difficult considering that person's character..

but, wadever, i jus felt like dressing up anyhow, besides, my fav lecturer's lecture's on wednesdays =]

love Jonathan London's lectures..his witty + dry humour and his dead nasal monotone and the more than occassional shows of clips are a killer with me..i luvvit!!..we watched rwanda genocide today..i felt realli funny and upset watching it..

weird that right when other kids are dying, i'm here in primary school, happily playing in the playground, contemplating wad to eat..it's a funny feeling that..

upset at other nations for their lack of "appropriate" & "adequate" response to wad was happening to the tutsis..

upset with the hutus..i mean..wad's their problem??..so wad if there are other "races" co-existing with u..they're not mass-slaughtering u cos ure a hutu..they shldnt do that..if they wanna have the upper hand (or feel like they do) they shld rise up, oppress and exploit them economically..that makes more sense..but no direct killing..*just a stupid thought*..

anyways, i think i did grab that person's attention..for convenience sake on my part, let's call that person Q..

Q was staring hard at me b4 class started..which either means Q didnt recognise me (like mahes & daena) or Q thought i dressed funny or Q liked how i dressed today..*i feel so superficial now*..

all the same, i felt pleased that i was noticed..

i'm going to be so sad when Q leaves..*sob*..

german was good =]

my teacher liked my postcard..and there were few mistakes..which is good..

gabriel's stomach was grumbling more or less thru-out the tu..hahas..but it's ok..if it were me, i'd be so darn embarrassed..so i didnt make a big deal out of it..jus smiled..i didnt have any food to offer either..so sorry!!..and it'd be weird to offer water..since i didnt know him that well..and he'd have to drink frm my bottle..plus the fact that i've gots a sore throat..dont wanna pass it to him the week before our oral test..

oh ya!!

does anyone know any place in Singapore which has Ninjitsu classes??

Ninjitsu NOT Ninja-Do

they're different..yea..

anyone??..

o wait..i jus found out..they DONT have ninjitsu classes here..no idea y..

so the best bet for me is to learn taijitsu (hand-to-hand combat)..and then go US learn ninjitsu..

sigh..

SOME NICE PERSON PLEASE SET UP A DOJO & CLASSES FOR NINJITSU!!!

i aint the onli one who wants to learn it here..

please?

it's pretty amazing that gOd loves us soooooo much considering we (most of us) disappoint him countless times and make him sad..

i've been struggling to keep myself a practising Christian..and gOd has been helping me..for that i am thankful..it shows He has not given up on me =]

confession : i've not been doing my daily bread..well..daily..it's been an as-and-when i feel like it..or if my mum reminds me..type of thing..

i need to do my daily bread daily because i've little (practically no) Christian influences in school..ok..so mebe i've been avoiding going for Campus Crusade for Christ meetings and disciple groups..i'm not very keen on going for those..smhow..cant realli explain y..i jus dont want to make the effort to go..daily bread is my daily time spent with gOd and His word..and to keep in touch with gOd..

that's y i NEED it

anyways..it's been getting better..in a sense that i'm getting more and more motivated to pick up my copy of "Our Journey"..

that's because so far, when i did decide to pick it up and read it, the reading for that day speaks to me..it's like..just so suitable and applyable for the situation i'm in at the moment..

gOd's timing is nothing short of amazing and fantastic

wad are the odds of my deciding to read my daily bread for a day, and that reading for that day is so applicable to me?..and that has happened not jus once or twice..so far..as far as i can remember..it's 5 times!!

i know there are many right now who are struggling in their walk with gOd..and i wanna encourage u..by posting the readings that so touched me..

i'l do it soon..but for now, i'l leave u with this song that came into my head when i was reading today's scripture verses..

Psalm 102 : 11-14
(11) For as high as the heavens are above, so great is his steadfast love towards those who fear him;
(12) as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
(13) As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
(14) For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust.

think about His love
think about His goodness
think about His grace that's brought us through

for as high as the heavens above
so great is the measure of our Father's love
great is the measure of our Father's love

how could I forget His love
how could I forget His mercy
He satisfies, He satisfies
He satisfies my desires

great is the measure of our Father's love

written by W. Harrah

May God give you
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile,
For every care, a promise,
And a blessing in each trial.
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every sigh, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer

gOd bLEsS

me

it was jus confirmed that i'm not gonna see smone for the rest of my days in Uni..

quite sad la..

felt like a huge & heavy anchor was chained around my heart and thrown into the Atlantic Ocean..

even tho i knew u'd leave..and i knew it'd be highly likely that it'd be soon..smhow, i hoped that i was wrong..hahas..guess i was wrong in hoping..hahas..*sigh*..

wonder if u'll remember me after u've gone away..?

anyway..talking to bryan's nice..i like that we've been able to keep in touch even though he's in australia and i'm here..cheers to technology and many more advances to come..

funny how i never ever imagined that we'd remain (close enough) friends after ghim moh days..like..he's practically the onli one who knows evrythg and anythg bout me..hahas..funny..hope we remain friends til we die, man..here's to friends for life =]

bryan's cmg home after his exams..which is soon!!..mus meet up..after MY exams, that is..hahas..i'l bet u can spot me a mile away..i've not changed one bit, man..not one bit..i wanna see the color of your hair..hahas..so interesting..

anyways..good luck for the rest of your exams..come back safely!!

jus met joel online..the joel frm CCC..not mj..honestly, pple..take a good look arnd u and stop giving extrememly common names to your kids..it's not helping thgs!!..too many joels, kenneths, sarahs, rachels, amandas, melissas, bryans, damians, crystals\krystals, stephanies..(no offense if ur name's here)..jus stating a fact..

anyway, joel opened my eyes to let me see that i'm realli living on gOd's grace..as in..i'm living my worth-less life entirely on gOd's grace..i mean..the way i live my life..it's definitely not pleasing to gOd..i'd even venture so far as to say i've made Him cry..which in turn makes me cry..because He's the last person i want to displease \ disappoint..but life as it is now isnt making thgs easy for me..then again, noone said life's easy..and i've not the strength to keep going..

i shld not be doing well in school..honestly..i dont deserve the grades i'm getting..so far it's been an A- road i'm taking..collecting A- after A-..and then one B- comes along..then it's A- again..it's weird..i think gOd realli wants to drive home the point that He wants me to have University education..and not onli that, do reasonably well there..

i dont know why..

it jus appears so..come to think of it, since i started primary school..

He must have a plan for me..(i know it's a stupid "durh" statement, all you Christians)..but if ure living a life that u know is not pleasing to gOd..and when the realization that gOd has a plan for U hits u..the worth-less U..it's pretty amazing..jus cant help wondering wad exactly gOd sees in us..

keeps us on our tippity-toes in a way..

hahas =D i jus did my daily bread..guess wad the title is..

"pick up your feet"

hahas..geddit??..toes..feet..nvm -_-

it's a lovely reminder and assurance..today's readings..read the verses and cldnt help but choke and tear..

Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and they shall call his name Immanuel (which means GOD WITH US)
~Matthew 1 : 23

Behold, I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS, to the end of the age
~Matthew 28 : 20

I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, to be with you forever...you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. I WILL NOT LEAVE YOU AS ORPHANS; I will come to you
~John 14 : 16-18

"most of us havent encountered a physical manifestation of God, but we have His God-breathed promises on paper in permanent marker. We have a written guarantee that we can recheck as often as we need reassurance. Let's step out of our shackles of fear and doubt, pick up our feet, and get on with it!"
~Beth Moore

gOd bLEsS

me

ytd was Hari Raya!!..SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all u pple!! =D

smhow, i still am not worried abt exams..au contraire..i'm rather excited..my first exams in Uni!!..sehr phantastisch!!..hahas..

was lying on my parent's bed..the window in their room faces roughly east..and the wind can onli be decribed with one word -- beautiful..

i like the feel of gentle breezes caressing my face..i can close my eyes and i'm

back in Egypt..on the nile..
back on top of Mount Sinai..awaiting the sunrise..
back on the sandy beaches of Sharm El Sheik..soaking in the sun & sounds & the clear blue waters of the red sea..
back in Udon Thani, Thailand..slacking in front of the church office..
back in Myanmar..watching the lil kids play happily at the bougainvillea's expense..

wunderbar..

i think i know roughly wad i like abt these plces..

i like the feeling that i can be a kid again..and jus stand \ sit there stupidly and absorb my surroundings..to take thgs slowly..one at a time..with no one rushing me..to be able to think quietly abt anythg i want..to be able to praise gOd in my own way for the beautiful thgs he has placed on this earth..for wad reason..i dunno..it eludes me..

i feel contented & satisfied..i feel free..

funny how places can make me feel free but pple cant..hah..jus a passing thought..

when i've earned enough money, i'l get sm friends and we'll go for the Egypt tour again..i love it..or as Ian Wright wld say "luvvit!"..

we'll go for the nile cruise..go see the temples of ancient Egypt..see & enter the pyramids..ride the camels at the nubian village..

climb Mt. Sinai at 1 a.m. ..watch the sun rise frm its summit..relax at the Conrad at Sharm..go for a glass boat tour on the crystal clear red sea..see my Orlando Bloom imposter =x ..that is, if he's still there la hahas..

visit the Mummies at the Cairo museum..i think a bomb went off there smtime last time..cant remember..hope it's still standing..with Ramses and Tutmoses init..

ooo..how cld i forget..valley of the Kings..and the valley of the Queen Hatshepsut..

lovely..

can have a tiny glimpse of the past and wad the Israelites might have seen when they were there in Egypt..think they built sm of it..but i dunno which..mebe i'l go find out..jus for the fun of it =]

gOd bLEsS

me

May the road rise to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
And rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.

May you live as long as you want,
And never want as long as you live.

Always remember to forget
The things that made you sad.
But never forget to remember
The things that made you glad.

Always remember to forget
The friends that proved untrue.
But never forget to remember
Those that have stuck by you.

Always remember to forget
The troubles that passed away.
But never forget to remember
The blessings that come each day.

May the saddest day of your future be no worse
Than the happiest day of your past.

May the roof above us never fall in.
And may the friends gathered below it never fall out.

May you have warm words on a cold evening,
A full moon on a dark night,
And the road downhill all the way to your door.

May there be a generation of children
On the children of your children.

May you live to be a hundred years,
With one extra year to repent!

May the Lord keep you in His hand
And never close His fist too tight.

May your neighbors respect you,
Trouble neglect you,
The angels protect you,
And heaven accept you.

May the Irish hills caress you.
May her lakes and rivers bless you.
May the luck of the Irish enfold you.
May the blessings of Saint Patrick behold you.

May your pockets be heavy and your heart be light,
May good luck pursue you each morning and night.

Walls for the wind,
And a roof for the rain,
And drinks beside the fire -
Laughter to cheer you
And those you love near you,
And all that your heart may desire!

May God be with you and bless you,
May you see your children's children,
May you be poor in misfortune, rich in blessings.
May you know nothing but happiness
From this day forward.

May God grant you many years to live,
For sure He must be knowing
The earth has angels all too few
And heaven is overflowing.

May peace and plenty be the first
To lift the latch to your door,
And happiness be guided to your home
By the candle of Christmas.

May you always have work for your hands to do.
May your pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on your windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near you.
And may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

God Bless

me

i said in a 17102006 post "appetite's back" that i read a daily bread passage that realli struck me..

because i'm back in gOd's oasis and into His presence after wandering for months in the desert (granted it wasnt 40 years like the Isrealites, but it was long enough for me to feel tired, weary and jus so wrung dry), reading this passage realli helped, and i hope it'll help all those who are feeling abit dry and having a space in your hearts that somehow refuses to be filled..

Our Journey, sep . oct . nov 2006, october 16 - monday, Steve Farrar

In his book More than Conquerors, John Woodbridge writes about J.C. Penny, a man who wanted to do business by the golden rule.

Early in Penny's career, his integrity was tested when he refused to be involved in a kickback scheme. Because of his refusal, his business was boycotted and he had to shut it down and leave town. Then in 1907, an opportunity to start a new store in Wyoming opened up. In just 5 years, it grew to 34 stored with sales of over $2 million! By 1929, he had 1400 stores across the US.

But Penny's public prosperity didn't shield him from personal hardship and suffering. As he walked his remarkable pathway to success, his wife died, leaving him with two young sons. In 1916, he remarried. But his new wife, Mary Kimball, died shortly after giving birth to their son, Kimball. Six years later, Penny lost $40 million in the stock market crash. He was virtually penniless. It was too much for Penny to bear. With a broken heart and the loss of a fortune, he wound up as a patient in a sanitorium. He was just 56 years old.

J.C. Penny was fighting the biggest battle of his life -- not to rebuild his empire, but to regain his trust in the goodness of God. One morning, as he fought off depression, he heard some employees singing a hymn in the kitchen as they prepared breakfast:" Be not dismayed whate'er betide, God will take care of you."

That line from a beloved hymn invaded the heart of J.C. Penny, and hope was reborn. Some simple words reconnected Penny's heart to the One he thought had abandoned him. He recommitted his life to God that very moment. And at the age of 56, he was ready to start over from scratch.

God didn't leave J.C. Penny in the sanitorium. And he won't leave you, no matter where you are. With confidence, you can say as the psalmist did," My hope is in You" (Psalm 39:7)

Hebrews 13 : 5-6
(5) Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

(6) So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.

Psalm 39 : 4-7
(4) LORD, make me to know mine end, and the measure of my days, what it is: that I may know how frail I am.

(5) Behold, thou hast made my days as an handbreadth; and mine age is as nothing before thee: verily every man at his best state is altogether vanity. Selah.

(6) Surely every man walketh in a vain shew: surely they are disquieted in vain: he heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them.

(7) And now, Lord, what wait I for? my hope is in thee.

God will take care of you =]

have a bLEsSed day, all

me

endorsing "Laa-Laa" (not the chopsticks, daena!!)

endorsing starbucks!!

have a wacky and fun-filled day, all~!!

god bLEsS

me

remember a long long time ago, in a galaxy far away..it was paul's birthday??..

wel..i've been nagging daena for the photos (sorry, man..) and she's finally put it up on shutterfly~!!

*yays*

go see go see!!

http://embossed.shutterfly.com/action/

thanks dae!!..such a dear to take time and effort to upload the pix..thanks!!

gOd bLEsS

me

Somewhere out there,
beneath the pale moonlight,
someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
someone's saying a prayer,
that we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there.

And even though i know how very far apart we are,
it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Somewhere out there,
if love can see us through,
then we'll be together somewhere out there,
out where dreams
come true.

today wasnt that great..mebe it's cos i didnt talk to mahes nor dianne much..mahes!!..see..i got miss u okay..*sniff*..

it's so nice to find a friend who's so funny and sweet..and the 2 of u jus click well enough to get along fine..amazing thg is..mahes is like the first friend i made in sociology, and we click well enough..

reminds me of yingying..sigh..wonder if she still remembers me..ours was interesting..we didnt realli talk much when it's jus the 2 of us..but it's not an uncomfortable silence..it's like..we know wad the other feels and therefore dont realli need to say much..the company's comfortably silent..i like that..very rarely i meet pple whom i can have that "comfy silence" with..actually..i think ying's the onli one so far..like..it's ok if i dont wanna talk..we'll jus sit there tgd..

i miss you, yingx =[

btw..rina..i'm NOT pissed..i never was today..i was tired and how wld u describe it..stretched??..like all my strength has been drawn frm me and i'm feeling as though i'm being wrung..not because of your comment on me and shivali being like other NTU pple..i got a lil upset and sad and unsure cos of smthg else..that's why i was so "religiously" eating my food..

u DONT wanna see me pissed.

i had a marvelous birthday ytd =D

i had no idea so many pple wld actually remember it..motivation to remember ALL their birthdays =] ..damian!!..i remember ure a 15th october baby, ok..i remember..

me -> ChuckDong
thanks for that lovely phrasing of a birthday wish..so cute~!! und sehr originell~!!..thanks loads, man..

thanks for wishing me a happy birthday, kevin, hannah, nish-tits, yenmin, charlotte, jenni, my baby girl - Grace Ng, puiki, wanping, mingwei, Joanna Tan, teckteng, yap, alicia, damian, mel, yuanjian, suhaila, shivs, ameera, dianne, mahes..yea..if i forgot anyone else, it isnt intentional..thanks for the wishes and blessings =D ..it realli came true ytd..had such a brilliant time!!

i met mahes for lunch at our usual wednesday 11 am haunt at kfc jp (think the staff there knows us le)..then we went for (my favourite) Jonathan London's lecture at 12.30..our usual spot was taken over by mutants!! no la..smone else took our plce..so we went to the front to sit with ameera, suhaila, shivs, sangee and junmin (dunno how to spell her name)..they started singing the happy birthday song super loudly la..so freakin paiseh..but so unexpected..nice =D
they almost sang again it when Jonathan London walked in..i would have died then and there of embarrassment, man..lucky they didnt..

sangee gave me a card..which stated yet again her opinion that i'm the female version of chee han..tsktsk.. =[ ..and toblorone!! =] ..sorry..havent eaten it yet..but mahes, dianne, shivs have taken bits of it..nice to share =D..hahas..thanks, sangee!!

he played 2 fantastic clips for the 2nd half of lecture today..then we went for tutorials..

after chee han's tutorial (he didnt call on me to answer qns =D ..wunderbar!!), i was gonna meet mahes again then we'll walk to can A tgd to have dinner b4 5.30 lessons..she said she had to go library do smthg or wad..saw her on the stairs..she refused to wait for me la..so i thought nvm..jus go can A like she told me to and wait..

then, she and dianne bought me a strawberry sundae with one long fry and nine short fries stuck in it..and started singing happy birthday =D ..so paiseh..but it was damn sweet la..

guess wad ameera, dianne, mahes, shivs got me??

a golden paper bag with a golden ribbon tied on it..
in it, was a golden purse-clutch-bag-thg
a pair of golden earrings
a GOLDEN BELT with a CROWN
a golden card

(chuck dong!! now u know why i said i had a golden birthday??..hahas =D )

thanks, babies..i luvvit~!!! twas darn sweet and nice of u guys..so touched!!

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou

after german, my mum picked me up..and we went to SUSHI TEI with my entire family plus my fav lil cousin, aren and his parents..so coincidental..i was jus tellin mahes i was missing my toddler cousin..then got to see him at night..not bad..

we spent $300++ there..tried sea urchin..dont realli like the texture..but it's great with seaweed =]

all in all..i realli had a beautiful birthday ytd..and wanna thank all who made it lovely for me..

birthdays arent special..people make them special..

so sociological huh..

thank you Lord, for such sweet friends..i pray that we'll be friends for a long time..mebe smtime in the future, we could meet up and discuss abt our kids..hahas =D..i thank you for letting me find you yet again..i pray that i'l never stray from you again..i know temptaions would come and present themselves again and again..but i know that you'll be there beside me, even when i cant feel you, or see you, or hear you..i thank you for never giving me more than i can take..and never withdrawing yourself from me more than i can live without..thank you for placing in my heart once again a burden for some sec 2s..i pray that i'll be a good friend and example and mentor to them..i pray that i'll have the courage and the strength to do your will in my life and not be ashamed or afraid of wad others may say or think..i pray that you bless all my friends and wad they do..and i pray that they wont stress out and burn out..

amen

gOd bLEsS

me

Hat dies online gesehen. Nettes Recht? Mögen Sie gelegentlich diese, die einen gemeinsamen Namen haben, ist nett.

Gott Segnen

Mich

thx Dianne!!..u've helped me loads today =D ..i've decided on the topic i wanna do for the HS 102 essay assignment..jus hope chee han approves..hah..i managed to find the 2 articles on the topic..*yays*..thank gOd..so exciting~!!

tmr's my birthday..so far..a record 4 pple have wished me an early happy birthday..so touched i was remembered =]..thx, shir, nish, sunand, bryan..feel so..i dunno..remembered..hahas..

was jus reminded abt a daily bread i read..yes..i'm slowly jogging back to gOd's side..i'm starting to pick up my daily bread..and praying too..which is good =] ..i'll type out the daily bread when i've the time..

we're doing religion in Singapore for HS 102..so interesing!!..lect didnt realli cover much..think i shall take the module solely on religion in society..sounds interesting..

O..i remember wad i wanted to say..

I'VE GOTS MY APPETITE BACK !!!!!

on monday, i had lunch at 1-1.30..and then i got hungry at abt 3..at 4.30, i had McChicken meal + Filet 'O' Fish..then i was satisfied..

then i got hungry again at 10..

can u believe it??!!

o..i think my butt's getting bigger..had to squeeze into my hangten jeans..is that good or bad?..hmmm..i need to start running again..jus to keep my butt and legs on the nice side..not to get all muscle-y..yea..i'm still not going to the gym, tho..dont ask me..

this is interesting..

http://kevan.org/johari?name=emyegeeayen

daena..try me!!

singing songs to gOd is one of THE most powerful thgs to me..when i'm feeling lost and lonely, i cry out to Him..when i'm found and happy, i shout for joy to Him..

and right now, i think..i have found gOd's beautiful sanctuary in the desert..

my wandering, i think and hope, is cmg to an end..i've found (or rather, gOd has unveiled my eyes to let me see) His oasis in the desert..

i'm cmg, Lord!!..i see You!!..

Hillsong Music -- Make me Glad

i will bless the Lord forever
i will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
i will not be moved
And i’ll say of the Lord

You are my shield
my strength
my portion
Deliverer
my shelter
Strong tower
my very present help in time of need

Whom have i in heaven but You
There’s none i desire besides You
You have made me glad
And i’ll say of the Lord

gOd bLEsS

me

L replied to my apology..L said i wasnt even on L's mind when he "scolded" the class..and that it wasnt me who "particularly struck L as impolite"..so that's..good, i guess..hmmm..

wad i thought interesting abt the email was that L addressed me by a short form of my name..smthg which noone in uni has done..the last pple who called me "meg" were my JC friends (not my teachers)..dunno if i like that..but who cares?..L's not angry at me..so that's fine and dandy..

to those who are bogged down with work, assignments, impending deadlines, exams..

if u can spare abt 7 mins 10 secs..

i'd like to introduce smone who's sure to make u at least smile =]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5q-jKjsmoY&NR

have fun, babies..

gOd bLEsS

me

wednesday wasnt a very good day..or mebe i was jus being oversensitive..i realli hope it is the latter..

i think i was sorta like the final straw for smone..let's call that smone L..L is smone i look up to and want to please..so i sent L an email asking for sm information that onli L can provide..but L wasnt happy with the email..reason being my punctuation, spelling, grammar was all rubbish..

u see when i write emails, esp to those whom i address by their first names, i tend to write a lil more informally..as in like msn speech..simply because when u ask me to call u by your first name, either i am "upped" to your level or you are lowered to my level..either way, we're on the same level..and i see no need to impress you with my literary skills..yea..

when L told off the entire class abt "netiquette" he stated that many others (i think before me) have faired badly in the area of email etiquette..sm examples he gave of bad email etiquette like not writing L's name b4 the email or signing off, i knew it wasnt me..so i wasnt the onli one..

but i jus had that nagging feeling that it was me that did it..like..i was THE last one he cld take..then he broke..and jus had to tell all of them off..feel so bad..like i jus got the whole class in trouble..

if ure reading this, i'm one of the culprits..and i'm sorry..i realli am..

it didnt help that L was glaring at me frm the moment i came into the classromm to the moment i sat down..then after class, he started glaring again..

i was so sure i wldnt meet him again til nxt wk..so at least got time to cool off..

but guess wad? i saw him again..and i think he saw me..

after german class, mum usu fetches me home..but that day she cldnt make it cos she had a function on..so i took the bus with gabriel..not the church one..this final year guy frm EEE who also takes german..

and when the bus reached HSS busstop, guess who was standing there waiting to board the bus?

yea..L..

L boarded the bus and stopped at the foot of the stairs (it was a double decker)..turned his head our way (where we were sitting) and furrowed his eyebrows..

i'm not sure if it's cos L was upset at the sight of me or if smone else took the seat L wanted at the bottom deck..

then L went up..and i was so glad i didnt see L when we all alighted at boon lay interchange..i think L lives arnd there..cos twice i saw L walking frm the blocks arnd the interchange towards the busstop..yea..

wel..L made me feel pretty bad..

those pple who are out to make me feel bad..that's the way to go, man..but jus so u know, i'l FEEL bad..but i wont necessarily SHOW that i feel bad..in case u get disappointed that u dont get to see me throw a tantrum or whine..

sigh

anyway, i apologised to L in a more formal email..the problem with apologising in formal emails is that they tend to come across as insincere and more robotical..but heck, if that's wad L wants that's wad L's gonna get..

good thg abt gOd is that He forgives as long as i ask..i probably wld have to live with the memory of it all my life (i've a tendency to remember such thgs) but to gOd, my slate is sparkling clean yet again..

o Lord You are good, You are good and Your mercies forever endures..

gOd bLEsS

me